Take it or leave it | Season of Ghosts Sophia
I was talking with my cousin who lives in London and she told me something really wise, that put my exact thoughts into words (since we're very much alike as characters)

この前はロンドンに住んでる従姉妹と話しをして、とても良いことをきいた。彼女は言葉で自分の気持ちも上手く表現出来た。

When asked why she can't be more of a clever, artful, cunning woman, who skillfully manipulates people the way that fits her needs, she answered "because I have faith in the quality of my product: ME." When the product is of high quality, you don't need to talk people into buying it. The product itself serves as an advertisement. You don't need any introductions or weird tricks.

彼女は”あなたはもっと狡かったら、もっと頭よかったら良いんじゃない?”と聴かれて、答えは:”いいえ、戦略なんて要らない。なぜなら”自分”という商品に信頼出来る”でした。商品の品質は高かったら、相手を説得する必要ない。商品は宣伝になるから。特に紹介や怪しい方法は要らない。

Actually, this has always been my most basic argument on why I don't like to bend myself in ways that do not represent my true character. I like to be outspoken, although it doesn't always have a positive outcome. Facing people head on, serving your raw feelings on a plate while gazing into their eyes, is also bound to discourage some people, or make them disappear from your life forever.


実際に私もこう思ってる。。自分らしくない行動をふりは出来ないから。考えてることをそのままで言う。結果はいつも良い結果になるわけないけど 笑 人の目の中で眺めて、自分の気持ちを生であげると、その人は怖がって逃げちゃう場合があるからね。。。

Up until now, I refused to follow any of those clever strategies and guidelines that mean to manipulate and control. I guess my life would have been easier if I did, though....but even if I tried, I don't think I could act it out that well..,.

今まで頭のいい戦略とかガイドラインとか使ったことなかった。人を使うタイプじゃないから。。。そうだったら、人生はもっとシンプルになるかもしれないけど、試してみても上手く出来ないと思う。。。

...Simply because windings roads fail to fascinate me. I prefer a straight path, for I've always acted in a way that now I have nothing to be ashamed of, nothing to hide. Although I still have a lot of work to do, I believe in the quality of my creation, I believe I have a good product to offer, so I won't bother making intros and sugar-coat it in order to sell it.

ウネウネした道がすきじゃないからね。ストレートな道の方いいと思う。今まで私は隠れたいことや恥ずかしいことがないように生きてきた。本当にまだまだだと思うのに、自分の商品に信頼してる。だから売る為に紹介や可愛いラッピングとかは要らない。

I know that this might sound challenging, high-maintenance or even bothersome, but I'm afraid it's the only way I can do it. 宝石白

それはチャレンジやめんどうくさいに聞こえるかれないけもしど、それしかない 宝石白


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