I had a new story of my life.
I fell in love with a man called S.
He was so so kind like, letting me have a sofa seat at a cafe, looking at my eyes when talking and never check the time or messages on his phone.
It may be natural as a man, but I never met such a gentleman. I think that's because he is 26 years old and had so many experiences.
He often told about his thoughts on love, his life style that he hadn't told to anyone at the restaurant we've worked, and also he heard to my speeches.
I was the happiest in this world, even we had 8 years distances. I was appreciated he talked with me without thinking that I was a highschool student or was still a child. I mean, he thought of me in an adult way.
He sometimes told jokes but he always had much delicacy.
Yesterday, we had dinner together, walked out to a park, looked up at the stars, had a break at a cafe and talked for more than 5 hours in total.
He asked me "don't you wanna tell me something?"
I said "what's that mean? No."
A few minutes later, he said "you love me?"
Yes, I knew my honest feeling. That was right.
He kept talking, "I am as old as a grandfather, I know anything. I thought for a long time what to say not to hurt you. I am the eldest son in my brothers, so I have to inherit the back of my parents. And I am from Vietnam, you know. Vietnam is a country people value its tradittion that I have to marry a vietnamse. I cannot love a lady so easily. So I can't meet your feeling."
I was sure.
I knew he had his goals, he thought many about his life and others.
Honestly, I loved him, but I didn't want to disturb him. Thogh I didn't tell my feeling I loved him, he tried to tell this truth before he hurt me.
I said, I didn't love him. It was false. But I was so sorry I made him consider so much.
He said, you are my sister.
It was enough.
Even though it was only 1 month that I had love for him, it was really true love. I loved him in an adult way for the first time.
On the way home, he let me tie our hands. He didn't make distance to keep our relationsip, he considers me to be his sister. I talked until 1:00 AM. It was last train I got on.
I've never had a boyfriend, but the way I think of love is the same as his. I don't wanna go together without thinking about marriage, that means like playing.
I learned many things in this time. This love is the story of my life.