Hi,...
It's been a while
Well let me share my day today 
Let me flashback for a while...
1st October 2011 I met one guy that I never met before...
He came to Jakarta for martial arts tournament...
Blue Adidas Short with Dark Blue Stripe, Blue T-Shirt with Red "K*R**E" word and Blue Shoes
I don't know why I magically like him at the first sight
He is such a funnny guy, friendly and also hardworker...
He doesn't has that charm like some man has....
He is such a simple man...
But at the last night with White Shirt and Long Black Pants he looks different... But still such a nice and simple man....
Maybe that's why I like him at the first place
I didn't like him because his appearance...
I like him because it is was him...
Short story I did a lot of efforts to erase the distance between us
We've been seperated 5.786 Km, 3.122 Nautical Miles away...
Took 8-10 hours to fly there 
It is far I know
I do more sidejobs, try to get some money and try to get permission from my company to go there for 2 week s time...
Just to see him ...
First time I went to his country and met him
I am crazy enough that time
I went to his country on 8th February and back to Jakarta on 14th February
I gave him a LOVE Chocolate on 13 February 2012 and do some confession... That time I will regret if I do not told him that I like him...
So I told him I LIKE HIM 
But he rejecting me
It's to fast since our first time met... It's my fault
After, I try to talk with him but maybe I am to persistent
So on December 2014 I've got rejection message from him
"Long time no see... Even if you come here I will never met you and I will never like you"
Guess how do I feel ?
HURT !!!
DAMN HURT !!!
Even he doesn't like me I wish that he never talk to me that way
But maybe it's not his fault
It was my mistake...
So okay I didn't take that seriously even though it's hurt...
I still trying to reach him
Even just a few conversation it's fine...
2015 October I flew to his country
And what happened was we met by chance and he just ignore me... He saw me our eyes was met, I even passed beside him but he pretend that he didn't saw me and I do the same.. I walked by with tears flew from my eyes
Well It feel hurt a lot it was 3 years after the last time we met and all I got was this?
He won't be doing that on purpose...
He didn't saw me passed RIGHT ?
I believe that till now...
He never mean to hurt me...
He just don't know that those things hurt me
After those day our communication are getting better
We chat on Line and facebook ^^
We getting more like a friend
I never wish for more...., liking him even it will never be returned
it's okay
BTW...
He made a blog and I always read his blog everytime he write the new one...
I read one of his blogs and one of his blog with this title "Sad Time"
That blog completely make me wanna support him more and more..
I promote him to my friends in Jakarta and asked my cousin to promote him ...
So if they want to come to his country please visit him...
Most of them do visit him... And I am glad to hear that
Even not much and I am far from him but I still can support him...
I do that because I know that he capable... And he prove it
But today I tried to talk with him cause I am in China
I told him I don't have a friend to talk
But the truth it wasn't that...
I missed to hear his voice....
But he said "I didn't reply your message it means I don't want talk to you , be more sensitive and understand the distance between us...
Well...
I need to experience this again ?
So, today I told him all the things that he do was to harsh and hurt me a lot.
But it's okay because all the things that I do
I do it SINCERELY
And last words I said was this
I never regret liking you and love you for 6 years
Thank you for everything...
I STILL LIKE HIM TILL NOW
I'VE BEEN SUPPORTING HIM FOR 6 YEARS AND NEVER STOP WISHING HIM THE BEST
MAYBE I AM JUST A DISTURBER FOR HIM
I AM SO SORRY FOR THAT
THIS FEELING THAT I FEEL WASN'T JUST ADORING HIM
IT WAS LOVE...
I LOVE HIM TOO MUCH
UNTIL I WILLING TO BE A FOOL FOR HIM
BEING BULLIED BY MY OWN FAMILY BECAUSE LOVING SOMEONE WHO NEVER LOOK AT ME EVEN ONCE...
BUT THIS IS LOVE...
LOVE KNOWS NO DISTANCE S LOVE KNOWS NO BOUNDARIES LOVES NEVER NEED SOMETHING IN RETURN
THIS LOVE WAS REAL ...
I wish I was born perfect...
I wish I was born flawless...
If so maybe I can get his attention...
But me was just me...
I am not perfect...
Short fat girl with tanned skin....
One said you may have MONEY, FAME, BEAUTY but all of those was nothing...
Because Love is the greatest above them all...
Seems like it's wrong...
IN THIS LIFE LOVE WASN'T ENOUGH...
Beauty, cuteness was the greatest of them all....
I won't show up anymore
It better for him to not knowing me
Life must go on...
So today was my last words for him
At least I ever love someone so true once in my lifetime
He is my real love and always be the one
Hope you have a good life, a beautiful girlfriend
Don't you ever give up
Take care of yourself... don't get sick
Don't do heavy things that can make ur back hurts
Be confidence... You can do all the things you want to do...
If you in love with foreigner girl do not afraid of Long Distance Relationship...
Love handles all.... Trust me
You are so dearly to me and always be...
- End-
PS: I love U