be confident!

recently, i have been stressed out so much, probably, there have been so many things which made me feel sick, esp one of my favorite persons passed away caz of unknown reason. it made me feel so sad and i am still missing him so much, i just feel that it is kind of easy that people can loose the importnant person.

i saw him a couple of months ago and he was being fine on the stage and i was so excited to see his performance again soon, but unfortunately, it will never come forever, since he is gone.

probably, i will continue missing him until i will know the reason of his death. now only i can do is that hope he will be rest in peace and there will be nothing which make him worried.

thanks, yuu san. hope i can see you somewhere soooon and want too see you on the stage!

another thing which made me feel sick recently is that my boss in the office.

i just dont like the environment where i am working currently.

there are a lot of people who are so nice to me and close to me, but some of the people are so mean to me. maybe, i am not good at working there or he just does not like me.

マジでやめてやろうと思う・

RIP Jasmine you

Aug 9, one of the Versailles members Jasmine you passed away.

when i knew that news, i just couldnt think about anything,even tho that day i had to work in the morning. also, i am still not believing he died and he is not here anymore and i cannot see his perfomance.

when i was 14 and 15, i was the crazy one who went to many kinds of Visual kei bands and i had some chances to see his EX band JAKURA at the live house. i still member he was outstanding compared with other people. Once he appeared in the stage. everybody is attracted by him.

i just started to go Versailles since i came back in Japan the last year, so i am excited that Versailles did major debut.

probably, YOU is also excited about playing at the major stage. i believe that he id make a lot of efforts to do the major debut and it did take 10 yrs since he began as visual band.

now, dont know how to express my feelings, it just like the same thing which i feel when KAZUKI passed away.

勇さんが亡くなりました。バンドマンは短命だけど、早すぎるよね。雀羅時代あたしは現役ばりばりのバンギャルちゃんでした。勇さんがバンドやってるのを知ってversallesにいき始めたし、１０年も頑張ってきた勇さんはメジャーデビュー後すぐになくなりました。神様はほんとにいるのでしょうか。

頑張って人に感謝することを忘れない人はこの汚い中では生きられないのかな。

自殺とか色んなうわさでてるけど、苦しまないで旅立ったのなら、それでいい。でも、もし勇さんが苦しんだのならやりきれないな。でも、もう天国では、キラキラミラーでゴージャスにしてるのかな。　追悼のＢｌｏｇ誰の読んでもあなたの優しさは本当であるみたいだし、だれの誕生日でもＢｌｏｇでお祝いしてたね。お母さんのもね。心がきれいな人はこの汚い世の中ではうまくやってけないのかな。

あなたの姿は一生みれないけど、遠征先での思い出や映像はあたしは消さないし一生の宝物です。あなたのおかげでまた命のはかなさを覚えました。次のアルバムツアーを楽しみにしていた姉妹であった分今は抜け殻のようです。次に勇さんが住む世界では勇さんが好きな様に生きていけるように。

あたしも、あなたのように周りに感謝しながら生きるようにがんばるから。。勇さん、今までお疲れ様。

これからのversaillesに幸あれ。

あなたを絶対忘れないよ。

rest in peace JASMINE YOU!

rui

image change??

recently, i have beeen so busy caz i started working. i made a lot of gooood friends, so ven tho there are so many obstacles there, i am still happy!

yesterday, i got my hair cut and change the color to very black! actually, i had not expected this kind of style.... haha. now, my hair is more like short........... it was supposed to be bob,,,,,,,,,,, oh well, i still like my black short hair.....

昨日、美容院に行ったんだけど、今でも信じられない！

あたし、今めっちゃ髪短い。

そりゃーーー肩すれすれの重めのボブ希望だったよ！

そんで、それを美容師さんに頼んだら、切りますねーって言われ、でも、昨日までも、ちょい肩下くらいだったし、そうかーーーとか思って切り始めたんだけど、後ろから切り始めて前とか横は最後だったんだけどびっくり！

ショートじゃん！肩どころか首じゃん！髪めっちゃ黒いよーーーー！

久しぶりに。

アジアンらしく生きますわ。今日、友達に会っても、うわわわーーーめっちゃ切ったねーーーー！

って言われたし、今めっちゃ首寒いわ。。。。。。もちろん結べないし。今日、コテで巻こうと思ったら巻く髪もないし、巻いたらさらに短くなったし。

すんごいわーーーーとか言いつつめっちゃ久しぶりのショートを新鮮に思っていますが。

おしゃれが変わるよね。

ボウシとか。

あーーー男の子みたい。

でも、当分は、ボブかな。もう少し伸びたら、ボブにしたいな。ロングは当分いいかな。短いと楽だし、キレイな髪保てるしね。。。。

ってかもー美容院行きたいんだけど。。。。。。笑

また切るのか、あたし！切るとこないぞ！

とりあえず、今の髪はそんな感じ。

もっとなじみますように。何かあたしじゃないみたいー