It's time to leave. Well, I can't wait to leave, like always.
May be I'm so depressed and always feel so down just because it's the most difficult time in my life?
Or there's no excuse but I'm a loser. Damn! I speak that out |||||
Today morning I have a big fight with mum. Actually, with aunt.
It starts as I misremembered the airline limitation on baggage weight... How stupid! I thought it's 23 LB but it should be 23 KG.
That's it. Then it turned to be a trial on me. Both of them shouted at me for a long while. Especially aunt. She came back for a sermon acting 2.
After shouted back for a few words I gave up. They won't stop unless they relieve their stress. I just listened, waiting for a stop.
It made me so angry all day long.
I havn't been so mad for years... Aunt is soooo annoying! I kown she's not mean to be such a bitch... OK, she is just worry about me and my future and my temper and my attitude and my relationships and my ... everything! I keep telling myself don't say anything bad to her. NO. Don't say anything. She know nothing about me. After all we almost haven't seen each other for 14 years...
WTF she's so confident when judging me of everything!
She know nothing! Only yesterday I felt kinda guilty because I hold back the little secrets of my cousin: they are not good ones. As his mother, my aunt should know.
But now I believe my cousin. He said u just cannot communicate with his mother. She will ask you to be a kid as in the book she read tens of years ago. Nothing can change her mind even for a little bit. And she will never give up to shape u as she want. She can keep annoying u for a hundred years until u follow her words.
Damn it! It's all her fault that make such a little stupid mistake of mine to be a big fight.
After pitch me up, she took my mun to another room to "comfort her". After her comfort mum came out with red eyes: she must have cried.
Oh my! I feel I cant' forgive aunt for a life time! I love mum so much but aunt make her cried for me as it was my fault! Damndamndamn! Fuck u bastard!
I swear my mum is always so proud on me since I was born!
I just cant' understand. Is there any benefit for aunt to do this? If I told her about what my cousin has done, I could probably understand: she can't bear me and my mum are so close in mind.
God I must stop complaining in blog. Nothing helped. Only make me more mad.