eternity

Who would've thought I would fall for you, the most unlikely person. Even I am bewildered by what brought your to my attention. Can you see me ? Or am I invisible to you, just like am to the rest of the population. Are you willing to accept my flaws ? Willing to accept me ? Or are you like the rest of them ? Taking people who love you for granted. The tears the fall on my desk symbolizes the fact that I know we're not meant to be. How do I know this ? Simple, I'm nothing and that's all I'll ever be. No one has ever taken interest in me. You may say people have, but through my way of thinking, I say otherwise.

I'm at point where I'm reading stories and crying because it's so beautiful. At the point where I so desperately want to be loved. I know I'm not at the right age to be thinking about this, but it's still something. I want to wake up everyday and look forward to the days coming, because there's that one person willing to support me. Where are you ? Are you there ? Are you waiting for me...?

Wow

I don't think about you anymore. Your adorable face, your comforting words, or your sweet breathing. I don't, not anymore, but when I do, I cry. I cry to the point where I'm shaking asking, myself why I still think about you. It's pathetic. It makes me look weak, like I'm sinking under the ground not even bothering to struggle. I let the pain capture me and devour my thoughts and feelings. Does it sound pleasing ? Are you happy I'm like this ? Is there someone to actually replace you ? My mind teems with thoughts about if I'll ever find someone again, despite my young age. This is why I read my manga, this is why I write stories, to fulfill my growing need to be loved. To act as if I am the character being portrayed as the one who is being loved and is loving. It's not one-sided, but as of now, that one-sided love is fading. I miss your voice late at night and I miss you trying to make me laugh. I'm going to stop thinking about you and move on to the best of my abilities. Goodbye....my dn baby.

Driving me Crazy

I think about you. Did you know ? My heart is aching because I like you so much. Your so distant from me. I feel as if your in a different world, a different dimension where everyone looks at you and admires you. People get close to you, I'm jealous. I stare from afar, jealous. Why ? Why is it always like this ? I close my eyes hoping this is a dream and only a dream. Wishing I never got interested in the first place. Yet your the kind of person people want to be around, unlike me. I'm not outgoing and my qualities are lacking. It's sad.