things have been rather bland recently. nothing new. ive been applying for lots of jobs. playing lots of video games. dieting to lose weight (i was at 182.8 this morning... so almost to 179 (my temporary goal) before trying to go to 170). im almost done with silent hill 2... its a really great game. i miss writing and reading. i really need to start holding myself accountable. i think ill try reading at night or in bed. just reading for fun really... i would say i dont even read anymore. its so easy to be disappointed in yourself.
i am happy to just get up i guess. not sure where my life will be going anytime soon. why for some reason does reading and writing make me feel like my life is going somewhere, even though im still stuck in the same place? i guess those things have that sort of power really. i have 350 dollars to last me until next Friday... to say im a bit worried is an understatement. i also need to map out some finances of mine. so i plan on getting that done in the coming few days. i also need to map out some of my familys combined finances... not so sure why that stuff is always my responsibility but whatever.
i have about an hour until work. maybe ill try to read killing commendatore a bit. its the start of the new week... maybe i should try to be strong. if i can read ill have the energy to write.
i guess ill just try to enjoy myself this week...