my stomach is literally killing me. i feel like i got punched.
anyways. the person who was supposed to interview me never called. i cant pretend i sat there anxious all morning preparing only for the 30 min window we had scheduled to just pass, leaving me with a very incompetent feeling about myself. everything feels so useless. it was just a reminder that after doing everything i got nothing. anyways i emailed him and he said we can do tomorrow. i dont think i will be getting this job. felt like they are more doing this out of courtesy. im going to just use this to practice my interviewing skills.
anyways i worked on music today too. i practiced singing and did some guitar work. singing was okay but playing guitar and recording felt good. singing felt more 6/10 and playing guitar was about 9/10. its a much more enjoyable creative experience for me than writing, not that writing is going anywhere though. but i probably will be doing more music than writing for the foreseeable future. nothing wrong with that i guess. also, guess ill start preparing a bit more for my interview tonight too. cant pretend i dont feel incredibly dejected though.
tomorrow is a really busy day for me. im going to have to plan a lot out.