Lemons Basket -3ページ目

Lemons Basket -3ページ目

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30Nov
- to be
  Say goodbye to november,now it's reasonable to decorate everything with lights and mistletoe.I am thankful for all the wonderful day I spent already, for all the lovely people I was able to meet, for the experience I am living.I hope this month will warm my heart, give me strenght.I hope to see the snow.
20Nov
- will I ever get over it?
  The answer is:No, I won't.Like another bilion of foreigners living in Japan, I will never get over it.I will toughen up but, it will still be annoying.The fact that something has been a certain way for centuries doesn't make it automatically right.Being treated like that hurts. It makes me want to give up. But I will not.I will just change my approach to the whole thing.I may not get over it but I will climb as high as I can.I am strong enought to do it!
16Nov
- Stop early Christmas decoration
  Tokyo is getting blue.I am getting blues too, put these might become pinks.I feel an idiot, for all these mood swings, all the love songs I am listening to, all the time I am waisting thinking.I have no perception of my body: I am tall and curvy but the world looks at me like if I am gozzila. I am not delicate nor femmine.I can do things for myself, I am never still.I like myself, I am proud of the person I am so why should I have doubds?That is not going anywhere.Deal with it.Focus on your future, it will be beautiful, bright and Christmassy.
01Nov
- so sudden
  I came across a completely different reality. So strong and intense, so deeply confusing.I am desperate to understand, because I was hit with such strenght now I'm scared.She said that my doors are open but, I really need a key to lock myself in.I feel uncomfortable, I want to shut it in, back where it was.I feel, and feelings scares me.By the way, it's november.
29Oct
- money trap
  I am living a great experience, having fun, surrounded by good people and eating great food.I never used so much money for my own benefit, to have fun, to go out, to buy myself clothes. It's a bit strange.I have been waiting this moment for more than 10 years so, I tell myself that it's ok to enjoy now. For this first month in Japan is ok to have a little fun. Because I deserve it.Even tho, there is the usual sqeeky voice in the back of my head that makes me feel guilty afterwards...And I am sooo glad that my parents cannot see my account lolIn the mean time, I got a job in a restaurant. Probably going to get another job too. I think is a good start.From next month, I will start saving up again.
19Oct
- behaviour shock
  I keep doing weird things.I feel free.I keep exposing myself to others.It feels nice being listened.I keep regrettingand it feels embarassing.It feels like I have been living here since forever but, the truth is only two weeks have passed.I think I should backup, and slow downbecause I am riskingto be burnt pretty quickly.
18Oct
- Late night snack
  Yesterday after a long walk to language school, I sat dow in the common space and had half of the peanut butter banana toast I made at home.The texutre was something I didn't expect.Later the same day, going back home I made a quick stop in a bakery near the station and bought two pastries: caramel nut brioche and marron glace.When I bit the nut brioche it finally got me:pastries in Japan taste like sliced bread.Anyway I am having too many snacks.Ugh, sugar.
12Oct
- My parents' house
  I never noticed how many comodities I had in my house in italy.Since I came to Japan, I had to buy lots of necessities and everyday I feel that something is still missing.So, this place is becoming really expensive.
02Oct
- bug day
  I found myself face to face with a japanese cockroach. Literally.I was going to have a bath and it just came down from the door.I obviously ran away.Then, I heard someone walking upstairs.One of my housemates was home!!I asked for help (More like psicologycal support) but even if she said that she didn't know what to do she came with me.We switched the light on and... It was up on the wall!She ran behind the door, I jumped on the sofa.It wasn't moving away so I decided to kill it.It took me 15 minutes of disgusted exclamations and shivers to finally get the courage to slap it with my flip-flop.And I did. It really made a big SLAP.It fell on the ground upside down.Great! It's dead!But my housemate said "What if is not really dead? Excuse me..."She took my flip-flop and started to hit the dead cockroach untill she smashed it.Then she said "Now it's dead for sure!"...Now I understand why the swedish girl said that only shady people lives in this house...
- ikebukuro
  I am trying to walk to ikebukuro without a map.I could memorise half of the path! I am positive.Super jet-lagged, a mosquito bit my foot and it itches so much. I hope it won't give me allergy. I have to find a mosquito repellent too.Did the laundry and cleaned my room, bought a table cloth for the tiny desk I have.Now that everything smells like bleach I feel home lolPlus, I got a pillow. Yesssss!
30Sep
- Landed
  First day.I ate too much and I'm always thirsty.I wonder if I will start feeling anxious.As for now, I feel at home.Except for the dust. Etciú.ε-(´∀｀; )
11Sep
- to do list
  Time is running short!My brain and stomach aren't coiperating.My room is still a messEveryday I discover new things to pack and put in the wardrobe.30kg aren't enough to carry a whole life from a continet to another.Gasp.
05Sep
- Wisdom
  I got my wisdom tooth removed.It was causing me severe posture problems and back pain, can you believe that such a small little thing could cause so much trouble?Well, it was a long process so I am happy it's gone.I am also preparing for moving to Japan. I am a little late on schedule but everything will work out fine. I can't wait to try all the delicious food!I'm looking forward to this new experience!
01Sep
- Hello September
  Start with positive attitudeEmbrace the up&downs you may faceDear FrancescaKeep packingAnd keep moving forward!
22Aug
- Focus on the important things
  Leaving Italy is tought.Not because of the people I leave behind, but because of all the paperwork I need to move to Japan.It is really difficult and nearly impossible to understand if you don't have someone who explains it to you.It's really difficult getting informations on houses and apartments, mobile phones plans, sim cards and subway montly tickets.It is driving me nuts. Every time I think about it I get head ache or stomach ache.Especially if the people around me keep panicking for every small thing.I need some calm and relax. I will go back on this later.
16Jul
- romance
  I'm now guest in Zucchina's hometown. We are both staying at her boyfriend's house, deep in the countryside of southern Italy.They're my favourite couple and I often wish I could find balance in life like they did.Wine flows, pasta at every meal, their lovely families made me feel at home.It will soon be Zucchina's brother 18th birthday.He is as calm and quiet as she is. With curious eyes, delicately smiling he speaks few words with a deep and warm voice that does not match his appearance at all.Antonio, boyfriend, and Silvio, brother, shares the pasdion for soccer. Often playing together at the local football yard, with their own team made of long-term friends, they both get excited when the latest match news comes up.When the three of them talk together I do not dare interrupt or join, seeing the smiles on their faces and the bursting laughs makes me feel at ease, enjoing the time together.Today I wish I took my copy of "Eat Pray Love" with me, because this holiday feels like a newborn romance.
13Jun
- ultraspeed
  I hope this summer goes away in ultra speed.I want to move out of this house as soon as possible.But, even when summer will pass I'll still have all of september.I hope it will be a busy one.
09May
- Growing apart
  His attitude makes me so angry.Why you need to joke on such stuff?Do you think it's funny? Do you think it was a joke feeling broken and hated and never enough?Do you think you are clever just because you put on a mask and say "I don't have problems, I made myself."?You're lieing to yourself! You're a lie as a friend as well!He makes me so angry, when he is so disrespectful about other people's sexualities.How do you dare making fun of trans people?Do you even know the pain they've been going through?You think you're big just because a few ignorant people laughs at your ignorant jokes?!You felt the same pain, when you came out as gay. I thought we gave you support, I thought my friendship and presence could comfort you, or at least be a little band aid on a few bruises.But I guess I was terribly wrong.How did you become like this? Why are you close with those people in the first place!I don't understand.Who made fun of you, who treated you so bad to make you grow such a hate inside yourself? Who? When? Why?He makes me so angry, because he's thoughtless and I'm worried. I'm angry because he cover his ears and closes his eyes, he's stuck in his own parallel universe.I'm angry because I'm starting to hate him and I'm running out of patience.Deep under that rough wall he's building up, is still there that beautiful person I meet ten years ago?
26Apr
- Macaroons
  I felt I deserved a treat. I've been feeling lots of mood ups and downs in this season and now that Annecy is approaching and I will probably (most certainly) not go, I felt disappointed.So I went to Ladurèe in Florence andI left with a little bacground feeling of guilt and repentment but, these are all aready gone and they were delicious.I should learn how to make macaroon myself tho *cough *cough
17Apr
- not worth it
  I find myself not answerying on social media messages, posts and group chats because I start believing that those people are not worth my time.