Sometimes I feel like I'm making useless efforts when others accomplish something I'm working hard and couldn't make it.
But I'm sure there're so many people making efforts right now.
I want to be proud of myself.
I want to be in the same place that these people stand by making efforts.
Some people should be talented, gifted and can do things better than me.
But it won't be the reason I stop working.
Now my obsessive disorder has got worse and worse.
I don't know where's the line between "normal" and "obsessed" right now.
But it's not me if I give up.