I know, it's more than just a wish.
I have some feelings for the j-guy.
What I didn't have before it?
I found him and all changed.
What's happen now? He's rock musician.
6 hours divide us. I wanna hate him ... I can not.
I should forget him... impossible.
I wanna write letters to him again & again.
I wanna hear his voice, to see his adorable smile.
Again & again I understand "I love him".
I should forget him somehow.
He and I ... we are different...
So... why I learn Japanese?
Why I'm sad? Why I think only about him? Why?
When I try to love someone another it turned out imposible.
I'm angry at him and myseelf, because we can't be together.
After I just love him. Why is it so?
He is so tender and kind. Is it only I see it? lol
I need him.
Is it love? Then why he don't say me "Hey, can I get to know you better?"
He even don't know my true name... *one tear*
My age is when girls should married. I don't want. Why I should to do it?
All what I want it's to have love. I want to love and to be loved.
I should to find rigth way of my life's road.
Rage