almost Friday!

I miss 大阪!!! I want to go back and see the aquarium again. If only I had money. I'll be moving in March, though, so I need to save money.

Ugh, moving is expensive. （Ｔ＿Ｔ）

Tomorrow is Friday, though, and that means...歌のおにいさん!!!!!

I'm really excited for this drama. So so excited!

But now, even though it's only 8:44pm, I'm going to bed. The cold makes me sleepy.

busy busy

So much has happened in the last few days, and I feel like this iguana.

My family upset me and I was very, very angry with them. Now...I don't think I will be talking to them again. It's complicated, of course, but that is how things are.

I am sad and frustrated by it, but there isn't an alternative.

Now it's time to go to work.

Mamma!

Today I went into 岡山市 and had lunch with a friend. We went to Mamma.

It was soooo good!

This was the dessert, a pumpkin and mikan cake.

I want to go again, but it's a little far for me. Sometimes, I wish I had a car.

almost the weekend

The week went by quickly, didn't it? I have so many things to think about this week; I'm overwhelmed. I'm trying to stay focused, though. First, go to work, then eat dinner, then plan and worry.

I'll be moving again soon - I hate moving - and spending some time back home to help my family. After that, I'll come back to Japan for the new school year.

Now to tell them...

stormy day

These are king penguins from Kaiyukan Aquarium. So cute! So wonderfully cute! I love penguins.

The family called last night and there were some difficulties. I'm hoping things will be okay. I have a plan. It's a good plan. Here's hoping it works.

2009 is here!

A friend and I went to Keiyukan Aquarium in Osaka for the new year.

I love penguins!

lazy lazy girl

Since I've been back in 倉敷 I haven't done a whole lot. These last two weekends I rested. I don't know why, but I was so so tired. Maybe I was getting sick.

Today I picked up the new w-inds. single and was really pleased to find that it was good. I haven't enjoyed this band in a while, but this new single is well sung and everyone is singing within their range. I hope future singles follow this trend.

Tomorrow it is back to work. I have...mixed feelings about that. I suppose you have to work to make the weekends worthwhile, though. Right? Right.

Okay, off to do a little bit of cleaning before bed.

on the road again

It seems I'm always hurrying off somewhere these days, doesn't it?

Tomorrow my friends and I are heading up to　東京 for the weekend to see テニミュ. I alreaey saw the performance in 広島 but 加藤和樹　will be at this performance so we decided to go again. I know, I know, we're kinda lame, but one of my friends hasn't seen the show yet, so it's okay right?

So I'll be gone this weekend, then come back midday on Monday.

Then back to work.

I'm not sure if I'll be staying in Japan long. I may choose to go back to the states in March. Family issues aside, I don't really care too much for teaching elementary school (which is why I requested not to teach it) and I don't like living in a city (which is why I requested a rural area). All around, things are the complete opposite of what I wanted. I can't think of a single thing that is the way I wanted it to go.

Am I whining? Is it okay to be upset about this?

I keep thinking these things because, even though I don't really care for my situation, I did manage to make it to Japan, right? I should be able to gather myself and just...change my circumstances. Normally I wouldn't let such things get to me; I would just gather my strength and fix things. But, I think my strength is all but gone right now.

So maybe I should just wait a few months and see, right? Maybe things will get better.

moving along

It's been a while since I've made a post about anything of substance. Sorry about that.

I've been busy settling down in 倉敷 and haven't really had internet access. Then, after getting access, I had to fly back home to the US for the funeral.

2008 has been a difficult year. I've been in the hospital, lost some opportunities, and lost my mother. I'm really ready for the year to be over and to start fresh. I try to be patient but, honestly, this year is just...hard, probably the hardest year in my life.

I still don't really know any Japanese. Everything I knew a year ago when I first traveled to Japan is gone. It makes work really, really difficult, but when I get back I'm going to work hard to get up to speed. I'm usually a lazy person, but I think this is one area where I can't afford to be lazy. Also, not being able to hold proper conversations gets on my nerves. As does illiteracy. I don't like being dependant on people for anything so I'll have to learn. And quickly.

The next few days I'll still be in the states. I go home to Japan at the end of the week. Until then, take care.

bad news

A month or so after coming here to Japan and settling in 岡山県, I'll be flying home under just about the worst circumstances imaginable. My mother passed away.

My flight leaves tomorrow evening so I'll be going into 岡山市 to get my re-entry permit taken care of before my flight.

I feel...horrible at hte moment, and I can't sleep. hopefully I'll just pass out on the plane.