Have you ever had one of those days where, at the end of it, you're really not sure how you feel?
I'm not happy and I'm not sad. I'm not lonely, but I'm not feeling particularly loved.
I feel blank. Neutral. Numb.
I do miss my best friend right now. He's usually very good at sorting out what I'm thinking and helping me get myself back on track. I'll probably give him a call tomorrow.
I've been thinking, if I don't manage to get a job in Japan, I'll probably move back to California. I don't like it much, for a place to live, and it's expensive, but there's more work opportunities I can network there and I'll have my family and my friend.
Spiritually poor. That's how I've been feeling lately. Nothing like a religious longing, but more of a need to reconnect to myself. I don't really know how to express it. If you've been there, you know the feeling; if you haven't, well, feel lucky.
I'm going to bed now. It's late and I have many things planned for tomorrow.