What emotions come over you when you think of the word "change"?
Changes is necessary in everyone's life because only through change, one is able to grow and breakthrough to a higher level. It is probably created as a positive word by an optimist. Change is probably for the better.
However, I beg to differ with what I have suggested. Change becomes negative when nothing is going right for a person. Right now, I dislike the changes that are going around between my best friend and I. I used to think we are best friend and I do cherish her much. We were always seen together, never once apart. We spent so much time together that we were flowing in each other's ways all the time, from the things we eat, clothes we wear and answering each other's sentences. I do not know what you are going through right now or even in the past, the way I had treated you, you must have been really upset and given up hope on me. I do admit that I have done wrong in terms of how I have treated every situations and giving you the cold shoulder. My reasons for them are selfish, I guess. Because I do not want anybody to know what I am going through. Since everyone sees me as an emotional person then let it be, I have nothing to say. I probably did not share what is going in my mind because your reactions proved to me each time that I should not share. The ideas will collide and we will end up quarrelling, most probably. I do hate quarrels, as and when I will avoid whenever I can. To everything that I have told you in the past, I have really vomitted out everything. I disclosed my true identity and all my secrets, is that safe? What if you spilled everything to your friends? Thats why I do not trust people easily. Shit. Houston, we have a problem. I really pray that you will not tell a single soul on all the things you know.
Letting go of this friendship. Should I? Taking back my trust. Should I?
I think we need to sit down and talk again. But again, we all seemed to be busy in our own world. I definitely do not want to spend my things on useless stuff. Sigh. I hate all this weird feelings building inside my heart.
On a happier note, to that person whom I am having mixed feelings on, I really feel happy being with you. Why can't we be from the same place? I have the urge to take the plane and rush over and give you my warmest hug and plops a big fat kiss on you. Haha. Thanks for everything, sweetie! Love!
