getting jittery

It's the time for exams again!

I'm pretty plagued by this because my CAP score was not that good previously. It's not stress that overwhelmed me but the thought of not doing well kind of scares me alot. I don't want to graduate with a low score because I still want to work for Singapore Airlines. Always for the airlines. It's for my own future, i have to strive hard.

I am unsure of economics all together because the answer can fluctuate alot, there is no fixed answer. I guess my concepts are not grasped perfectly well. Its inevitable for me to take this as my module because I would like to minor in it. I really hope I can do well in all my 5 subjects to pull up my CAP score to 3.6.

For now, I'm a happy lark because everything's doing well. 10 months already, that's kind of long if we think by the numbers. But everyday has been going on very smoothly, I can't wait till I see him again, exactly 2 months more and I'll be able to spend more than a month together with him. Yays! This relationship has its dificulty but I'm a easy person. As long as I feel happy emotionally, I have no rants. What can I ask for? We're 8500 miles apart. That alone, I can't ask for a lot of things already. I just want to continue believing that this will come true for the both of us.

Before that, I really hope that the acne on my face can clear up. I hate the weather here. It's so hot and irritating. A little stress, a little hotness will cause drastic pimples to pop out. Ugh. My face isn't really that oily. Sigh. I want to look good in front of his grandparents and relatives. I need a new haircut as well since he has been bugging me to cut my hair.

Seriously, love can make somebody change. I have never been so affected by people before but he made me give in to him everytime. Sigh. That's love, I guess. Sacrifices made for each other.

I need a job that pays me really well. God, I pray!

The Future

Looking forward to my exciting future life.

Before getting into university, I thought I was just another girl-next-door who does not have an ambition or a mind of her own. I just want to live my life however it comes to me. College life has really changed my mentality. This life is my life and I only have once to live it to the fullest. I picked my major, Communications, and fell in love with it. It might be too early to tell because I am doing all the basic modules for communications in school. The real thing has not set in yet but I am really encouraged by all the research I have done. Corporate communications? Internet communications? Media relations? I know they require courage to speak, give me a bit more time to practise speaking in front of many people, I believe I will be able to overcome the occasional fear I have for public speaking. Other than that, the more I read about what public relations specialists do, the more I am interested in their job scope. It is in line with my character! Outspoken, active, people-oriented and creative. (That may be too cocky, but oh well, confidence booster!)

So it seemed that God has led me back to my childhood dream. Something which I always want to do.

Working for Singapore Airlines.

Whichever subsidiary company it may be, whatever jobs I apply for, my childhood dream was to be in the environment of the airport.

Now it is coming back! I am setting this dream of mine as a goal for my future. Administrative position in Singapore Airlines that includes communications and PR specialists. There is job rotation though, hence my specialty might not put me under the PR department but to start from the scratch of being a normal administrator. Well, this is not a hundred percent confirmation about the job criteria but whatever it is, I really do hope that I am able to work with them. I can probably do temporary jobs in their company as customer service assistants or something else over summer vacations!

Everything start from a dream. I can do this even with a bad start in CAPS for my first semester.
I can do it!
You go, girl!

Bliss

He started the new year, 2008, for me.
A week of unforgettable memories although it was only about 3 days of being together. I could not ask for more because you are the perfect christmas and new years gift for me. I love to snuggle right beside you, hold on to you and give you warmth. It was blissful having to see my love smiling to me each morning I wake up. Are you the one? I don't know, but it is worth trying to run towards eternal happiness hand in hand.

We might be of different religious backgrounds, but my own beliefs make me stand firm on my point that I want you because you fit the outline that I have in my dreams really well. Like you said, you completed me as well. We can overcome the distance and this religious difference especially.

To us, the love is ours to keep.
To us, the love is ours to cherish.
To us, the love is ours to remember.

I love you with all my heart.
7 months and counting till infinity.

For this year,
there are many things I would want to achieve.

CAP score to increase to 3.6 by the end of semester 2
Financial blessings to support my holiday trips, shopping expenses and Student Exchange Program
Student Exchange Program application to be approved and sent to University of California, Irvine in September '08
To be less emotional about things and events
More senstive to the people around me and serve faithfully in the cell group
Learn drums from Royston (Songs to complete are It Ends Tonight, Creep and The Reason)
Maintain my weight or go lower to 45kg
Have many dinners and hanging out with my family members
Less procrastination and more active participation
Get a really cheap air ticket, preferably by Singapore Airlines at <$300, to Shanghai on June 24 to be with him

I think that would be it so far. Chinese New Year is coming! I look forward to this festive occasion because its a period where I can spend time with my family and relatives. I love being soaked in their warmth and love. Despite being just average family income families, my relatives are all strongly bonded together. We always have get-togethers every now and then. This feeling is so precious that I will not want to trade places with anybody else. Where can I find a family which is so closely knitted together that one piece missing from the jigsaw destroys the entire art? We are the herd of ox that are infallible. I love it this way. I love it that God brought me up in this sort of family. Although my own nuclear family is inperfect, I can draw love from elsewhere! My family is irreplaceable, definitely. I love you all, Mom, Dad and my brother, and all my cousins, aunts and uncles! Cheers to family unitedness! Oneness. Wholesome. Yep!