I took leave today specially for my provisional driving test because they only do it at 11am in the morning.
I also wanted to take a rest knowing that I will be tired from the weekend trip to Aomori.
Before I left house, I prayed and I asked God to go WITH me to the battlefield.
But instead God spoke to me and He said, " I am going ahead of you... I am already there, to pave the way for you."
This is just one of the examples how God speaks so clearly to me when I cry upon Him.
Very few people know I am going for my driving test because I hope to keep it a secret till I pass. And even fewer people know how anxious, stressed and fearful I have been these few weeks... the times I had to repeat my S and L curves or when I felt some instructors didn't take me too seriously just because I was a foreigner.
I definitely suffered from a serious lack of confidence.
But everytime when I felt that I am alone, God never fails to assure me of His promise.
His promise to me that driving will be a skill that I can bless and not harm.
A skill that will bless multitudes of people that will come my way.
So I went for my test. We were put together in a group of three.. While one drives, the other sits behind to see and another in the waiting room.
I was blessed to be number 2 to be able to first revise when the first person drives but yet not having to wait too long.
Also, was blessed with the course I was more familar with.
I was really nervous at first but when my hands were on the handle, the storm in me just calmed down and I was somewhat able to drive normally like I did in my practices.
I made a mistake ( what I thought was terrible) of not releasing the brake fully....
and I felt really stupid actually because it was really avoidable if I had been more careful.
Somemore, it was the instructor who reminded me.
At that point, I was thankful that there was no immediate failure and I was given the chance to finish the test.
I kept praying to God that I will accept the result bravely.. and if I wasn't a suitable driver, please fail me and don't give me chances to harm others.
The instructor gathered the three of us in the group later on and held a debrief... He started with the first person, telling him all his mistakes etc....
But when he came to me, I couldn't believe what I saw on the paper.
It was a perfect 100 mark.
Tears started swelling in my eyes.
That is a MIRACLE... it is not the final exam...
but how can I someone so klutzy have no mistakes on the driving??
The instructor was probably a little shocked when he saw the tears in my eyes... I couldn't even answer him, I could only nod my head when he said there are no mistakes in my driving, just to have more confidence to pick up speed...
God is a miracle giver. I can only say God is soooo good. He doesn't prove himself by giving us phenomenal signs like 10 rainbows across the sky or His name spelled by clouds.
I felt like I understood better why now...
God is simply not interested to do things just to boast His own name. He doesn't want us to not know why we are worshipping Him.
He cares so much for each and everyone of us, our needs and even the simplest cry of our heart.
He wants us to be able to have a personal experience with Him that we can call it ours.
God also taught me once again how I can be a blessing to people even I do not know. I was given the reminder and priviledge to be able to pray for the person driving when I was sitting at the back.
So thank God, all of three of us in the group passed!!
