距離を置くこと。

今まで同じ人

同じ場所にいたせいで

自分を見失ってた。

気付かないうちに

人にあわせてた。


そんなんじゃ

私じゃない。


本当の友達って

距離を置いても

また必要なときに

現れてくれるものでしょ?


少なくとも私はそう思ってる。


だから今は

少し距離を置こうと思う。

私はそうやって

今までもやってきたんだから。


その私の性格に

賛否両論はあるかもしれない。


でもそれを直すくらいなら

今の私を受け止めてくれる人と友達になりたい。


だって私、

そんな器用じゃないから

そんなに簡単に性格直せないもん。


それで離れていく友達は

私にとっての親友ではないんだよね。

それが私。

あ、最後にhappy leap day!笑

I've changed a lot

Most people said that I haven't changed...

Yeah, I agree that my appearance have not changed at all!

However, my personalities have changed a lot....

I wish I could go back old days.


What did I do in the weekend??

How did I make friends?

Didn't I trust my friends?

I really liked people didn't I?

I always said that let's hang out!


I always stay inside because I do not like to hang out with people.

I do like a little bit, but not so much.

If people ask me like wanna hang out?, I say yes.

However, I don't ask people like "wanna hang out?".

What's wrong with me?


Honestly, I do not like to stay inside all the time.

But, I'm not brave enough.

I rather to stay inside, if I have to ask my friends to hang out.


Do I act like a nice person?

Yeah I think so.

Am I good at fake smile?

Yes, I do.


I can't trust anyone except few people.

I don't have truly friends here.

I don't know I can survive here.

I really feel alone here.

I am weak, I am not strong.