今日、昨年度隣だった同僚からお手紙が届いた。
最初、見た目も怖そうだったし厳しかった50代のベテラン。新年度はなんでこんな理不尽なことで怒られるんだって思ってた。笑
でも、仲良くなると困ったときにいつも支えてくれた。
先生からの手紙には私の良いところが３つ書いてあった。
一つ目は、よく勉強してきたし、今もしてるし賢いこと。特別支援の担任で適切な関わりや指導ができたのは勉強してきたし、しているからでしょう。
二つ目は、謙虚で礼儀正しいこと。食べ方も綺麗だったし、廊下を歩く時は背筋が伸びてきちっとしていましたよ。
三つ目は、一生懸命なところ。何にでも。
と書いてあった。
とても嬉しくて涙が出た。なぜなら、全部自信がなかったから。
初めて業務で何が何かわからなかったし、猫背だと思ってたし、箸の持ち方が昔からおかしくて、一年目指摘されて、練習しても自信なかったから。大人用エジソン箸で練習していたから。それでもなかなか治らず、他人とご飯を食べたりえんぴつ持つたびに勝手に自分でドキドキしていたから。（自分で自分をそう思っていたから）
あとは、優先順位がわからなくて何事にも全力を尽くして身体を壊してしまったと思っていたから。
良い点でもあったんだなぁ。本当に良い出会いだったな。また会いたいな。
A Letter from the Teacher
Today, I received a letter from the teacher who was next to me last year. At first, she seemed scary and strict, a veteran teacher in her fifties. But once we got to know each other, she always supported me when I was in trouble.
In the letter from the teacher, she wrote three good things about me.
The first was that I had studied hard, and I am still studying, and that I am smart. As a homeroom teacher for special needs education, I was able to interact and guide appropriately because I have studied and continue to study.
The second was that I am humble and polite. My eating manners were good, and I always walked down the hallway with my back straight and properly.
The third was that I put in a lot of effort into everything.
I was so happy that I cried. Because I had no confidence in any of these things. It was my first time in special needs education, and I didn't know anything, I thought I had bad posture, and my way of holding chopsticks had been strange since I was a child, so I practiced with Edison chopsticks before becoming an elementary school teacher.
Also, I thought I broke my body because I didn't know how to prioritize and ended up giving my all to everything.
I realized those were good points too. It was truly a wonderful encounter. I want to meet her again.