Smells like death,
Drunk and unnoticed,
Sprial and swing…
Like leaf survive from cold winter…
Dying in the spring.
Can't you see the beutiful?
Can't you read me?
I feel like dying without knowledge the truth,
Save me.
…From this fatal spring.
Just… want cry out…
ask you for forgiveness…
if you give me another chance,
I will never make you disappointed…
But…
I just forgot,
I am asking for whom?
where…
Just seems shrinking into the deepness.
ask you for forgiveness…
if you give me another chance,
I will never make you disappointed…
But…
I just forgot,
I am asking for whom?
where…
Just seems shrinking into the deepness.
I think…
I could do much better than this.
But what's done is already been done…
Cannot change anymore.
That's it…
No more…
No more.
I hate myself.
Sorry.
I could do much better than this.
But what's done is already been done…
Cannot change anymore.
That's it…
No more…
No more.
I hate myself.
Sorry.
CV
Years ago. When I was a Undergraduate student, once my tutor of English course ask us to write a CV, for the future 10 years of ourselves… And I read it again, just moment ago. It breaks my heart.
Why I'm such a useless person. I want to be strong … 2017, I don't know if I still can achieve it...
Years ago. When I was a Undergraduate student, once my tutor of English course ask us to write a CV, for the future 10 years of ourselves… And I read it again, just moment ago. It breaks my heart.
Why I'm such a useless person. I want to be strong … 2017, I don't know if I still can achieve it...
Just…don't want to sleep right now…
don't know the reason.
Heard girls on the street singing…
pretty girls and seems like really drunk.
read twitters and weibo…
not answering or retwitter others,
pretend I have already been fallen a sleep.
I don't know…
I can't think the meaning of my life.
I feel like totally a mess of my life.
can't see light,
can't see hope.
Just another day…
Just another minutes…
I've been hunted, hunted by despair…
this endless empty.
Save me, please.
please...
don't know the reason.
Heard girls on the street singing…
pretty girls and seems like really drunk.
read twitters and weibo…
not answering or retwitter others,
pretend I have already been fallen a sleep.
I don't know…
I can't think the meaning of my life.
I feel like totally a mess of my life.
can't see light,
can't see hope.
Just another day…
Just another minutes…
I've been hunted, hunted by despair…
this endless empty.
Save me, please.
please...
Can you heard me scram?
Can you heard me cry?
Can you heard me call for help?
Sometimes, I feel like I'm only one, in this alternate reality.
It must be an alternate reality.
Because, I cannot think of another reason to answer myself.
I'm wondering if there is God?
Just watching us…
these pity little living being on earth.
like walking dead.
What the god would think of us?
would he (or she) laugh?
or pity?
Can you heard me cry?
Can you heard me call for help?
Sometimes, I feel like I'm only one, in this alternate reality.
It must be an alternate reality.
Because, I cannot think of another reason to answer myself.
I'm wondering if there is God?
Just watching us…
these pity little living being on earth.
like walking dead.
What the god would think of us?
would he (or she) laugh?
or pity?
I know you always lie to me…
I know.
Just cannot speak of the truth.
Because this is only thing I can do for you.
And I'm also pretending…
Pretending someone I'm not.
My oldest brother once told me when I was a little girl.
「Someone was born to be alone.」
as I grow up, I know he was talking about me.
we both born from loneliness, and grow up in different way.
I thought I might be an Alien child who was lost on this earth,
everyone know this, expect me.
May be this live is too lonely, too dark.
I want someone else here.
I pretend to be human…
Just… like an actor, casting this person you might like…
Because… I just want to someone love me.
But… this is much more than I expected.
I'm tired.
Make everything end…
okay?
I know.
Just cannot speak of the truth.
Because this is only thing I can do for you.
And I'm also pretending…
Pretending someone I'm not.
My oldest brother once told me when I was a little girl.
「Someone was born to be alone.」
as I grow up, I know he was talking about me.
we both born from loneliness, and grow up in different way.
I thought I might be an Alien child who was lost on this earth,
everyone know this, expect me.
May be this live is too lonely, too dark.
I want someone else here.
I pretend to be human…
Just… like an actor, casting this person you might like…
Because… I just want to someone love me.
But… this is much more than I expected.
I'm tired.
Make everything end…
okay?
「It's not fair.」
Since that I always talk to myself.
Then I know what's wrong with me.
I am becoming someone I hate.
I should not complain, and should not sad.
「Because…You are different.」
Am I?
I'm not, I just another creep.
Another…
Everything I do… everything I give.
Just, love me please.
Just … love me.
Since that I always talk to myself.
Then I know what's wrong with me.
I am becoming someone I hate.
I should not complain, and should not sad.
「Because…You are different.」
Am I?
I'm not, I just another creep.
Another…
Everything I do… everything I give.
Just, love me please.
Just … love me.