lost

Life has no purpose…

Without a guide.

I'm lost.

scary

Scary,

I never think about future, because I never think I would have one.
But as the short sighted, I could never find how to achieve dreams.
However, as time passed by, I think I know what I want, but just have no faith to believe, and no path to chase.

Save me.

life

I think I still want to end this.

It's pain when I think about all these.
But when I was not,
when I awake,
I feel loved.

that's so sad.
I want to alive.
that's so sad.

Gift

I dreamed about you this morning.
You whisperd,
told me,
There is a gift waiting for me.
A Child?
as I asked,
I heard you smile.

This year, later this year.

I can't see it coming.
I can't understand.

Tell me.
Speak to me.


Please...

Drunk

Drunk


Beer,
Wine,
Vodka.


There is nothing can make me forgot.
I want to forget the past.
I want to forgive myself.


Just drunk.


make the achohol cry inside me.



Save me.

Dreams

Dreams

21 May 2012

I was scared, shocked, as I relised what I've done.
Just there, over there.
I cannot see, I cannot hear…
But it still there.
When someone open it.
I'm so dead.

I'm hidden.
Hidden the turth.


Help me.

wrong

Feel like heart broken.
I'm wrong.
Just, no one can save me, but myself.

who's there?
in me…
on one.

…
save me.
please.
save me.

To Mum and Dad

Everytime I phone home…I don't know what to say.
Everytime I hang on the phone…
Just want to cry.
Cry out… if on one hear me.

I should be here.
I know.
I should be here when you are ageing,
I should be here when my sister get married.
I should be here when my brother have frist child.
I should be here when you are ill, when you feel alone.
… when you miss me.

I'm sorry.
I thought this lonliness would trade you proud.
…
but in the end…
there…
just empty.
there is nothing.

I'm sorry.
I can't make you proud.
I'm sorry I'm not by you side.

I want you know how much I love you…
how much I care about you.

But…
it may be too late.

I still want see your smile when my wedding.
see your happiness to hold your own grandchild in your arm.
want to see you tear of proud.
want spend all my life with you…

I want to hold you in my arm.
to tell you how much I love you.
how much…
I miss you.

I'm sorry.

please… forgive me.

voices

I have not a day… don't think of death.
I'm not afriad of silence of dead.
but these voices left behind.

Save me.

fri

I cannot stay there to look through your stupid...

so, don't bring me back while you still acting like fool.
the right or wrong it doesn't matter,
all the matter is where your heart lays...
the loyal to your friends.