10:30 pm, November 11th, Sunday night.
I have just finished making presentation for tomorrow and now I am relaxing with a can of beer. It is a fun to make a presentation. I think I like to make a picture of what I think.
I have been spending WAY TOO A LOT OF TIME to think since I came here in February.
Because there is nothing to do, and it is difficult to meet people. I spend 2/3 of weekends by myself. Temecula is middle of nowhere. Thus I have a lot of time to think.
I think about
Life - what kind of life do I want?
Job - what have I done this year?
Career - what kind of career do I want? what is my career goal?
Love and marriage and family plan - what should I do?
Those kind of concern, uncertainty of the future have kept me making crazy, I have cried every so often.
Someone who met in here told me that my impression is
Having strong feeling of loneliness
Lack of confidence
Generous
I used to have a confidence with no reason, I believed that I could do anything to a certain level, but now I feel I can't do anything.
I don't know why.
When I worked as an engineer for a Japanese company, I believed myself who had a good idea, smart and I actually enjoyed the job.
Now working as an engineer for an American company in the US, I feel that I can't design anything. why?
Maybe I am not interested in the guide wire products at all!!
Okay, I got one answer now.
Now I can sleep well...
America is very severe society to work. YOU need to prove that you are worth paying for. Otherwise, you will be laid off.
I have just finished making presentation for tomorrow and now I am relaxing with a can of beer. It is a fun to make a presentation. I think I like to make a picture of what I think.
I have been spending WAY TOO A LOT OF TIME to think since I came here in February.
Because there is nothing to do, and it is difficult to meet people. I spend 2/3 of weekends by myself. Temecula is middle of nowhere. Thus I have a lot of time to think.
I think about
Life - what kind of life do I want?
Job - what have I done this year?
Career - what kind of career do I want? what is my career goal?
Love and marriage and family plan - what should I do?
Those kind of concern, uncertainty of the future have kept me making crazy, I have cried every so often.
Someone who met in here told me that my impression is
Having strong feeling of loneliness
Lack of confidence
Generous
I used to have a confidence with no reason, I believed that I could do anything to a certain level, but now I feel I can't do anything.
I don't know why.
When I worked as an engineer for a Japanese company, I believed myself who had a good idea, smart and I actually enjoyed the job.
Now working as an engineer for an American company in the US, I feel that I can't design anything. why?
Maybe I am not interested in the guide wire products at all!!
Okay, I got one answer now.
Now I can sleep well...
America is very severe society to work. YOU need to prove that you are worth paying for. Otherwise, you will be laid off.
