I'm worried about my friends in Japan.
I keep seeing posts on facebook and twitter that people are ok. I' happy to hear it. emailed some friends, they also said they are ok. But still waiting to hear from some friends, so still kind of worried.
日本で私の友達を見たい。
I have been so restless lately, especially at night. I am awake all night, I usually don't go to sleep until 5 or 6am.
I'm okay during the day, but at night after work, after everybody's gone
to bed in my house, I sit and I just feel restless. Like I want to go
out and do something, but I can't call my friends to go hang out at 3am
on a Tuesday. People have class or work and there's nowhere to go
anyway. I also don't really have anybody I can call on a random day of
the week to just go hang out.
I know part of my restlessness is loneliness. I usually don't see my
friends for weeks or months at a time. Everybody, including me
sometimes, is busy with school or work or rehearsal or something.I think
people need to make more time for spending time with their friends.
Though, I'm sure it would help and be easier if I lived closer to my friends.
My loneliness is more than just missing friends. I haven't been in a
good relationship in years. But I think "why don't you have a
boyfriend?" and "why don't you have somebody to have sex with?" are some
of the stupidest, most unanswerable questions you can ask a person.
Don't ever ask those questions. Ever.
OK, enough complaining and wallowing in my friends are far away-ness.
Hopefully this week I will be getting my new stole that I ordered, It's
beautiful.
Aaaaaand next week, I'm going to visit my best friend Youko Sunshine
during my spring break. Then Thursday, I'm leaving for Zenkaicon near
Philadelphia to help as Rose Noire's con staff, and the following Sunday
is Their concert in Brooklyn that I BOOKED! My first show booking. I
hope its really successful. And only 2 days after the concert, I'm
leaving for Pittsburgh for a week to be staff for LIX. at Tekkoshocon.
I'm really looking forward to all these events, but I'm a little worried about my school work. It's midterms ad papers season.
Now I need to sleep because it's 6am and I have 2 papers and a story to write tomorrow.
Today, I ate really unhealthy food. I had a microwave dinner, burger king meal, and potato chips. I did have an apple, but that's the only healthy thing I ate.
This is the last day for a while that I can eat like this. I decided to become more serious about my modeling. My favorite designer will be coming to AnimeNext in June, and that is really close to me. Not only will I get to meet him, but I entered the contest to be a model in the fashion show. I will find out sometime in April if I will be in it. The contest was posted today and I entered almost as soon as it was posted. I'm kind of eager lol
I started sort of dieting a while ago, and I've lost 5lbs and I am happy about it. But I still need to lose 10-15 more lbs. That's gonna be tough. Not only eating healthier, but I need to be more active. I need to go to the gym more often, which is difficult because of my work load from school.
My hair is healthier, shinier, easier to take care of. My teeth are getting whiter. My skin is getting better. I think as long as I keep up taking care of myself. I just have to eat even better. Difficult to get fresh vegetables in the winter, but the weather is warming up, so maybe fruits and veggies will be easier to afford.
One of my classes in school assigned a health and nutrition project, part of which is a food/activity journal. So that will help. I can diet and do homework at the same time (・ω・)/
