Once again
I've fallen flat on my face
I can't see Your face for the dirt of my shame...
I fell willingly, knew what I was doing
Refused to stop, though I knew I was hurting You
I have to be honest enough to say that part of me didn't care...
After all has been said and done, I sit on this shower floor
Wondering what went wrong
Wasn't it I that was so passionate about my love for You yesterday?
Now it hurts, like there's a piece of me missing
I can't cry, but I curl into a ball
Lashing at myself for being so stupid...again.
I can see You turning away from me in the acts of my sin
Then being subject to a brutal whip
Because that's how much You love me...
Why? Why do You love a failure such as me?
How could You?
Why offer Yourself for this unworthy one?
I look up, seeing the ceiling yet feeling Your presence
My shame demands I cower in guilt and fear
Yet You still draw near to me
You cup my face in Your hands
And I can feel the scars brush my skin
Adding to my guilt
Those were my lashes You took
My bruises You bore
My sin that You carried
You never remind me of my failures
Never bring to mind my past
You just love me...
You just love me...
I am so tired of this...I'm tried of letting You down
I'm tired of this guilt that haunts me in the night
But most of all, I'm tired of hurting You.
Help me make You Lord of my life
And not just Saviour
I don't want to hurt You anymore, my Jesus...I don't want to hurt You...
Let Your word be my only treasure
Your approval my only desire
Your promises my only hope
Give me strength to walk away, give me the strength to stand in Your love for me
'And having done all to stand
Stand.'
No longer a souless puppet
No longer a lie
Now I am Yours. (Anon)
I've fallen flat on my face
I can't see Your face for the dirt of my shame...
I fell willingly, knew what I was doing
Refused to stop, though I knew I was hurting You
I have to be honest enough to say that part of me didn't care...
After all has been said and done, I sit on this shower floor
Wondering what went wrong
Wasn't it I that was so passionate about my love for You yesterday?
Now it hurts, like there's a piece of me missing
I can't cry, but I curl into a ball
Lashing at myself for being so stupid...again.
I can see You turning away from me in the acts of my sin
Then being subject to a brutal whip
Because that's how much You love me...
Why? Why do You love a failure such as me?
How could You?
Why offer Yourself for this unworthy one?
I look up, seeing the ceiling yet feeling Your presence
My shame demands I cower in guilt and fear
Yet You still draw near to me
You cup my face in Your hands
And I can feel the scars brush my skin
Adding to my guilt
Those were my lashes You took
My bruises You bore
My sin that You carried
You never remind me of my failures
Never bring to mind my past
You just love me...
You just love me...
I am so tired of this...I'm tried of letting You down
I'm tired of this guilt that haunts me in the night
But most of all, I'm tired of hurting You.
Help me make You Lord of my life
And not just Saviour
I don't want to hurt You anymore, my Jesus...I don't want to hurt You...
Let Your word be my only treasure
Your approval my only desire
Your promises my only hope
Give me strength to walk away, give me the strength to stand in Your love for me
'And having done all to stand
Stand.'
No longer a souless puppet
No longer a lie
Now I am Yours. (Anon)