this should be the way life is~~~


damn, im playing really hard during the holidays.

3 months of hell,
1.5 mths of heaven. (hmm not totally thou)

i wont say the wait is all worth it. im just doing what i want to do.







i cant say what i really want my future to be, and im still in the midst of nayami.

each time i thought i had an answer, my mind goes back to sq one the very next day.

whats making me so indecisive?



perhaps i dont have that one person to tell me exactly what he/she thinks i should do.
perhaps i want that somebody to tell me what i want to hear.
but that somebody... hmmm








gosh,

its only the 1st week of holiday but im turning darker n darker as the day passes.



大ちゃん
一緒に日焼けに注意しろねハート


每次回到家
一个人的时候
都会想到他。
想起他。




我不喜欢回家。
ST
Korea
Taiwan
Okinawa
Kyoto
NY




LT
Japan,
Singapore,
NY??




hee

---------------------------------------------------
i think i have to block XXXXXX from my msn.

No more contact

XXXXXX`s presence makes me upset.
听着耳

嵐揺らせ, 今を音符

at the same time,

random zheng 在 MSN Google Talk









我又元気元気モリモリ!!






嬉





akn


XOXO
我想要
当坏人


*shhh*






做一些
对不起良心的事?!


*shhh*



其实我最想做的







永睡不起




哈哈哈






2星期没有睡,
对身心是不好的



我就是个活生生的例子











我想哭哭


我要抱抱

回家回家回家

我真的决定要回家了!
自从P.U.FF.Y concert彩排开始,到现在

我晚上都没在睡耶!!

快疯了

夜晚都是闭着眼睛5-6小时到天明






就算有over night pract
我也可以回家只睡1小时就再也睡不下




my body doesnt seem to want to rest no matter how tired.



and most of the time, i cant feel my body.

it seems to have lost communication with my brain.

argh








Its so easy to give up

Picking up the option to return to singapore grows on me, whenever i feel uptight about the life here.

Is it any wonder I don't know what's right?

but who is there to judge the rights and wrongs in life?

what makes a good decision? or what makes a bad one?



should i seek one that provides materialism comfort,

or continue to pursue the intangibles?








every time i tried to take this issue lightly, there is bound to be something coming along the way.

this time, in a good manner and a big one.

exactly what i have planned all these while.
yes, its going exactly the way i want.




an offer.

an opportunity.

a chance.


i have already given up.
im tired.. mentally and physically.
why does it have to give me hope?

its disturbing the peace in me.

amen
开学忙碌
假期也忙碌

虽然都是忙
但是

前者是每天做同一件事的忙
后者是太多东西要做的忙