"I want to lose myself to the mountains, to the forests,
all alone walking there with my cold bare feet and hands,
in white dress akin to a soulless ghost
wandering around the forbidden sacred land.
I want to touch the roughness skins of trees,
to feel how hard they've been fighting and surviving,
for all these years through the stormy rainy nights
and sunny windy days.
I want them to let me breathe the air they exhale,
that gives me life
to keep my heart beating
even when it's barely feeling
I want to run and chase after the mist that I know exactly
I couldn't catch nor touch with my uncleaned hands
while looking at the sky and cry together
just to lift the burden that weighing us down.
I will let the wind touches me coldly as they wish
and takes away all those shitty thoughts
I have inside my blankness head along with them
to the vast sea of cloud's horizon
To let all the pain inside my chest flows endlessly
like a river with never-ending streams
while I'm stepping on the decayed leaves
and let it absorbed all the heaviness inside my chest,
buried them to the deepest core of the earth,
my heart-ache.
Allow me to kiss and show all of my love
to every flowers and plant that I could find
in that little foresty yet,
as wider as a mountain of trees trying to touch the sky
just to feel a warmth touches of a love of the sun kisses.
I give them my purest of love,
they couldn't stop giving me theirs
without demanding or asking
anything in return."
Here is the original writing I wrote early this year.
