Today, I saw my friend who I had not seen for a several months.
Maybe 4 or5 months? I went to Hiroshima city to see this friend.
It was like a little New Year party.
He is a friend that I can spend time with, being just the way I am.
He is a friend with whom I can be my true self.
It is strange that since the moment I met him, I can be myself around him.
He is so unique to me.
It's so easy to be with him.
He sometimes says to me,
"I want to be like Enjoy English-san"
But I always think "I am same as you"
Otherwise, I would never have caught an incurable disease.(UC)
In truth, I probably get stressed out easily and that affects my body and mind.
He thinks that I am a happy go lucky woman.
Then He thinks that I don't study English hard.
But, I am not a happy go lucky woman and I'm trying to study it as hard as I can.
Only I do so at my own pace.
Please teach me English again.
I decided to change myself 10 years ago.
I have been trying to change with steady effort
That is why my UC relapses easily with stress.
I said to myself,
"I want to eat food deliciously and have lunch with my friends !!
so I have to change."
Maybe in my subconscious mind,
I stay troubled, and my heart keeps crying and remains sick... I don't know.
But in my conscious mind,
I am not worried about what is past,
I put my feelings behind and move on.
I try to keep my natuaral self.
I always visualize my future positively.
I do not push myself too hard.
No matter how much I get criticized or blamed,
I am ok, I just live true to myself .
I live with a lot of words like these in my heart.
He says, "Because you are kind, you only say things that praise me."
But I don't tell a lie.
"You are the most perfectionistic, the most hard working, and the calmest friend that I have.
All the people around you must have heartwarming experience.
It's all right to be just who you are.
Your good nature reaches everybody.
I can't see you often, but let's remain good friends forever."
A depressed time was transformed into a healing time at Starbucks Coffee.
If you move to Sizuoka. Please send " Sizuoka Tea" to Maya's house.
I will enjoy a tea time with her.