Wahh!

Wah!!
I'm So Frustrated And Stressed!!
My Mom's Treating Me Like A Slave!!!
She's A Hypocrite!!!
She's A Slave-Driver!!
She's So Self-Centered!!!!
I Hate It!!!
At School I Always Hear My Friends Complaining About How There Moms Care Too Much!!
How They Complain About Going Out With Their Happy Families!!
Hearing About Stuff Like Their Parents Always Go Out Together And All!!!
I Hate It!!!
I'm Stuck With A Broken Family!!!
While Everyone Else Only Thinks About Small Things That Make Them Hate Theirs!!
All I Want Is A Normal Happy Family!!!
One That Whenever You Come Home You're Greeted With "Welcome Home"s And Smiles Instead Of Plain Silence And Loneliness!!!
One That Always Worry And Take Care Of You When You're Sick!!!
One That Always Have Fun And Laugh!!
One That Actually Eats All Together At The Same Table In The Same Room!!!
All I Want Is A Family Like That!!!
I'll Give Everything For That!!
But Instead I'm Stuck With A Family That Hate Each Other!!
One That Always Fights!!!
One That Never Cares About Anyone But Themselves!!!
One That Is Filled With Lies, Deceiving And Using!!!!!
I Hate It!!!!!
It's Unfair!!!!!
Why Does Almost Everyone Else Have Families That Are Warm And Welcoming And Actually Have A Place To Call "Home"!!!!
While I Have A Broken And Cold Family And Don't Even Know What A Place Called "Home" Is!!!!
Why?!?!
I Hate Hate Hate It!!!!!!
Every Single Night, I Cry My Eyes Out Wondering Why My Family Is Like This!!!
I Want To Know What It's Like To Actually Look Forward To Going Back To My House!!!
I Want To Know What It's Like To Hear A "Welcome Home" And See Smiles When I Get Back!!!!
I Want To Know What It's Like To Actually Truly Say Straight-Forwardly "I Love My Mom" Or "I Love My Family" Without Having To Lie Or Think About It!!!
Ever Since I Was Born I Was Left Alone!!!!
Everyone Around Me Was Always Looking At My Older Brother Because He Was A Handful While I Was The Quiet One And Always Ignored!!!
Whenever My Parents Would Actually Try To Take Care Of Their Kids, I Was Always Left Out!!!
I Was Always Alone!!!
I Grew Up All Alone!! Independently!!!
I Had No One, While My Brother And My Friends Had Everyone!!!!!
They Actually Have Memories With Their Families That They Can Look Back To And Smile!!!
Since I Could Actually Start Thinking, I Always Wondered "Is It Normal To Not Have Met My Father And Older Brother Until I Was 2? Is It Normal To Always Come Home To Find Screams Of Anger, Things Broken, Blood? Is It Normal To Have A Mother That Always Takes Out Everything On You? Is It Normal To Have My Father Look Me Straight In The Eyes And Say "I Don't Want You. I Never Wanted You. Goodbye."And Walk Out On Me Right In Front Of My Eyes? To Not Have Met My Father Again Till 3Years Later Just To Find He Has A Whole Different Family? To Find That I Have 3 Step-Brothers And 1 Half-Sister (That Was Still On The Way At That Time) And A Step-Mother I Never Knew About? To Find That My Father Has Hidden This Family From Us Since I Was 5 Years Old?" And More And More Questions Kept Coming Into My Head.
Earlier Today, I Saw A Happy Family, The Father And More Were Smiling And Each Holding One Of Their Daughter's Hands, Then The Father Kissed The Mother Lightly And Carried The Daughter And Started To Play With Her. They Were Smiling And Laughing. They Were Happy. They Were A Family.
Mo...... I Wonder What It's Like? To Have A Family Like That.
Well Anyway...
Bye Bye.
Thanks For Reading.
Take Care.

Hiatus.

I'm Going To Take A Hiatus.
Too Much Is Going On In My Personal Life.
I Need To Also Concentrate On School Because Even Though Final's Are Half-Way Through, I Also Need To Start The Second Semester Well So I'll Be Able To Get Good Marks.
So Yeah The Hiatus Is Definitely Going To Last To At Least Mid-January. If Not, Then Longer.
It'll Start When It Just Turns To The 14th In Japan Timing.
I'll Update Here From Time To Time And Put Up The Link On Facebook And Myspace When I Do.
I'll Online SOMETIMES On MSN And YM.
So If You Guys Want To Contact Me If It's An Emergency, My Contact Info Is On My Facebook Profile "Nat Atari" (Not My Other Facebook Account). I Have My Emails, Ameba, Myspace, Even My Phone Number On There.
Only Contact Me If It's An Emergency.
Only If You're Rira, Sharlene, Mei, Maria, Xinyi, Mira, Souha, Tutti, Deniz Or Any Of JUMP You Can Try To Contact Me Any Time. (Michelle Don't Worry, We're Neighbors, Go To The Same School, Etc.. So It's Like The Rule Doesn't Apply To You Either.)
Don't Worry, I'll Definitely Be Back, Just Need A LOT Of Time To Concentrate On Other Things.
I Decided To Take Sharlene's Advice She Gave Once And Take This Break Because Right Now I'm Going Through Some Very Hard Things In My Personal Life And I Really Can't Take Any More Stress.
Also, Like I Said Before, I Have To Concentrate On School.
So I Really Need This Break, And I Finally Realized That, Because If I Don't Take It, I'll Seriously Just Permanently Break.
Just For The People Who Are Too Lazy To Go Check The "About Me" Section On My Facebook Profile Or Check The Contact Info For My Number, Here's Where You Can Contact Me During The Hiatus:

Emails: nataleatari@hotmail.com
natalieatari@yahoo.com
Ameba: http://profile.ameba.jp/nat-atari
Phone #: 00971557304535


Then Jaa Minna. I'll Update From Time To Time And Let You Guys Know How I'm Doing, Don't Worry. And Remember, Don't Try To Contact Me If You're Not One Of The Exceptions I Listed And If It's Not An Emergency.
Please Take Care Ne?
I'll Miss You Guys.
Jaa~

Final Exams Coming Soon! (＞＜;)

Yo~~!!
How Has Minna-chan Been Doing?? (^∇^)
Have You Guys Been Enjoying Your Life?
Have You Guys Been Smiling Even When You're Sad?
Have You Guys Been Laughing Even When You Want To Cry?
Have You Guys Been Chasing After Your Dreams Even When You Feel There's No Hope?
Well If You Haven't, Let's All Start Now!! (^∇^)
All Together!!
Let's All Live Life To The Fullest And Chase After Our Dreams!! ('-^*)/

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These Past Few Days,
A Lot Has Been Happening...
A Lot That Has Made Me Cry, Made Me Laugh, Made Me Shocked. (^o^;)
But I Realized, We All Go Through The Same Feelings!
Always Remember That Ne Minna-chan! (^O^)/

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My Final Exams Are Coming!! (＞＜;)
They Start Wednesday!! (￣Д￣；；
I Already Finished Studying Half-Way Though.
Today Was Supposed To Be School, But I Skipped
Because There Was Only 3 Actual Classes Which Aren't Really Important Either, And The Rest Was All Gym, Break, And Free Classes. (≡^∇^≡)
Tomorrow Is A Study Holiday, Then After Tomorrow Final Examinations Start!! (｡＞0＜｡)
Well Minna-chan Wish Me Luck!! (→o←)ゞ
Jya Ne Minna-chan! I Will Go Study Now! (^O^)/
Take Care And Always Remember What I Said In The Begging!!