Strength.

Wanna Know What Strength Is?
Being Strong Doesnt Mean Not Crying, Or Not Being Affected from Pain, Or Always Being Happy And Independent.
Being Stong Means Handling all The Shit Thrown Your Way Up Till The Very End, All The Way.
Only The People Who End Up Suiciding,
Only The People Who Give In To All The Pressure,
Only Those Are Weak.
Everyone Else, We, We’re All Strong.
Some Of Us It Doesnt Show For Yet,
But Like A Flower, It Will Bloom, While For Others It Already Has.
We All Survive, We All Live Up Till This Day After All The Shit Thrown Our Way.
That's Called Strength.
Having The Ability To Survive, That's Strength.
I've Been Through LOADS Of SHIT, We All Have, How Do You Think We Survive Till Now?
One Word, Strength.
Inside Of Us, We're All Strong.
If Someone Tells You You're Weak, Puts You Down, Its Only Because They Know How Strong You Are.
They Know That You're Way More Stronger Than Them.
So These Are My Words For You;
Smile, Cry, Laugh, More Than That, Live Life To The Fullest.
With Your Strength You Can Definitely Do It.
That's All *smiles*
Thanks For Reading,
Jyaa~~~!!

Six Painful Strikes.

These Days A Lot Has Been Happening.

First, Fake Problem Is Going Bad...
I Won't Say Anymore Because Top Secret?
But Yeah...
Second, Ryosuke...
I'm Worried....
Third, Mira I'll Miss You When You Leave For Next Year...
Remember If Anything Come To Me To Let It Out Like I Told You To Today!
You'll Always Be My Neechan, I'll Wait For You!
Take Care Ne!
Forth, I Had A Fight With Mama Today....
And That Would Have Hurt So Bad Itself...
Fifth, Danny..
My Older Fully Blood Related Brother.
Sure He Wouldn't Care If I Died This Second, But I Actually Care About Him A Lot...
He's Always Being Bullied And Alone At School.
He Only Has 2 Friends, And Those Friends Are Always "Busy".
He Has Trouble Concentrating On Things And Always Hyperactive, And He Keeps Thinking Its Something Big Like ADHD (Attention Deficit Hyperactivity Disorder) Which Is Something That Can Never Be Cured.
Also, Today There Was This Whole Fight When I Went To My Dad's Place.
There's Always A Fight, But This Time Was Different.
Danny Kept Asking Everyone About It, And Kept Insisting He Had It.
And They Kept Insisting That Its Nothing.
And Then My Dad Got Pissed Off And Came In, He Gave This Whole Speech About How Its Just That He's Always Closed Off, That He Should Just Try To Fit In With Everyone.
But Then Danny Said That Its Not His Fault That He's Different Than Everyone.
Then Dad Snapped At Him Saying That He Should Try To Share Interests And Mingle With Them Anyway, Because Its Ruining My Dad's Reputation, Danny Being Like That.
Everyone Got Into It After That And Was On Dad's Side.
All Danny Could Do Was Just Sit There And Look Off Somewhere In Anger While Everyone Was Telling Him Off Because No One Understood Him At All.
The Difference Between Me And Him Are A Lot.
He Actually Grew Up With All The Adult's Attention And All, My Parents When The Were Taking Care Of Their Kids, It Was All Danny.
While I Grew Up Alone.
But Because Of That He Grew Up Spoiled And Over-Sensitive.
Once He Was Sent To The Psychologist Just Because He Wouldn't Stop Biting His Nails No Matter What So It Was A Last Resort. Then That Psychologist Complicated Things Saying He Has ADHD And All, So They Fired Her But Danny Started Believing It Himself Because Of Her.
Now He's Acting Like It's Like Cancer Or Something And That It's A Big Deal, No Matter How Much We Tell Him Its Nothing He Wont Listen.
I'm Worried But I'll See How Things Will Turn Out.
Sixth, House Problem...
My Mom Started Complicating Things And Insisting On 50,000 CAD While He Keeps Refusing And Insisting On 40,000 CAD. The Plan Was All Set And Everything, Sure It Hurt But At Least I Knew Where I'm Going To Stay, What's Going To Happen.
My Dad Stopped Paying Completely For Everything So The Bank Is Going To Take The House If They Don't Settle This In A Month.
They're Being So Selfish. WHAT'S WRONG WITH THEM?!?!? IF THEY DON'T SETTLE IN A MONTH BASIL, DANNY, ME, AND MY MOM WILL BE HOMELESS!!!!
I Don't Care What Happens With Me Or My Mom.... But At Least For Danny And Basil...
Why Do They Have To Complicate Things So Much?
Just For 10,000 CAD Difference.
None Of Them Will Move In Their Decisions.
That Selfish Bastard Of A Father Is So Rich He Can Spare 10 Times As Much Yet He Wont Agree.
That Greedy Bitch Of A Mother Can Live With The Amount He Offered Comfortably Without Even Having To Work Yet She Wont Agree Either.
What The Fuck Is Happening To The World?
Why Is Everyone So Greedy And Selfish?
Caring So Much For Such Small Things?
Why The Fuck Doesn't Anyone See The Big Picture.
Can't They See What They're Doing Is Going To Make People Homeless.
Ruin People's Lives.


Seriously.... I'm Crying So Bad Right Now Because All These Things..... Everything...... It Hurts...... Why? Why Do All These Things Keep Happening?.... I Want To Close Myself Off To Everyone And Everything.... It Hurts.....

Anyway, Thanks For Reading.
Enjoy What You Have While It Lasts Ne Minna!
Take Care Ne Minna!
Jaa.

Belief, Honesty, Patience.

I Just Have A Couple Of Things To Say For Some People.



First, What Is Belief?
Belief Is Giving Your Trust In Something That Might Not Be Real.
Belief Is Something We Use Everyday, Every Night, Without Even Noticing.
We Use Belief In Our Small Actions;
When Sitting Down, We Believe That The Chair Will Be There To Support Us When We Sit Down.
When We Drink, We Believe That The Drink Is There To Drink.
When We Eat, We Believe That The Food Is There To Eat.
Desho?
So Even The Smallest Things Need Belief.
The Problem With People These Days Is That They Think They Aren't Able To Believe In Anything. But If So;
How Are They Able To Live?
How Are They Able To Drink?
How Are They Able To Eat?
How Are They Able To Sit?
So Everyone "Believes".
Another Problem Is, People Think That They "Can't" Believe In Something That Seems Risky Or Wrong.
They Think That It's Just Wrong To Believe It.
That It's A False Belief.
But Just With That, You're Still Believing In Something.
You're Believing That It's Wrong, That It's False.
See?
People Just Don't Understand That.
We Have Belief In Everything, It's Just When That Belief Becomes Risky, When It SEEMS Wrong, They Automatically Get Scared And Don't Want To Believe That.
But, We All Have To Learn That, Sometimes, Taking Risks Is The Best Option.
That We'll Be Happier That Way.
That Everything Is Going To Be Alright That Way.
All We Have To Do Is Just, "Believe".
Even If It Was Wrong In The End.
At Least At The End Of The Day, You Can Look Back And Think;
"I Gave My Full Believe In Something Risky, I Did Something Worth Being Proud Of, Even If It Was Wrong In The End, I Still Believed In Something Big."
At Least You Can Say That At The End Of The Day.
So It's Better To Just Take The Risk And Just Believe.
Even If You're Scared, Don't Be Afraid, You Have Your Friends Around You To Help You, You're Not Alone.
So Just Take The Risk And Believe.

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Second, Honesty.
Honesty Is The Ability To Be Able To Say The Complete, One And Only, Truth.
By Saying That, You May Think;
"If That's So, Then No One On Earth Is Truly Honest."
For Me, That Used To Be True, That Is What I Believed.
But Afterwards, I Found Out What That Really Meant.
It Really Meant That, Sure, Some People Would Lie Once In A While, But As Long In The End, You Tell The Complete And Only Truth, You're Honest.
So Some People May Start Of On The Wrong Foot, They May Lie And Afterwards Want To Take It Back, Well The Best Way To Do That Is To Go To Whoever You Lied To, Apologize, And Tell Them The Full, Real Truth.
Whether You're A Con-Artist Or A Little Kid Who Has Only Told One Little White Lie, You Can Still Have This "Honesty".
As Long As You Tell The Truth In The End.
As Long As You Come Clean In The End.
Anyone Can Have This "Honesty".

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Third And Lastly, Patience.
Plainly Put, Patience Is The Ability To Last Through Hardship Without Complaining.
The Ability To Last Ages Without Complaining.
To Wait For Something For Something For So Long Without Complaining.
Many People Generalize Things Like;
"Kids Don't Have Any Patience Because They're Small."
"Adults Should Have A Lot Of Patience Because They Lived Longer And Have More Experience."
But Really, In The End, That's Just Completely Wrong.
Some Kids Are Very Patient And Attentive.
Some Adults Are Very Impatient And Hot-Tempered.
Patience Isn't Limited.
Just Because We're Young Doesn't Make Us Automatically Impatient.
Just Because You're Old Doesn't Make You Automatically Patient And Strict.
Patience Is Something We Can All Have, No Matter What Our Age.

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That's All For Now!
Arigato For Reading!
Jaa!