Life is..

Thursday, October 09, 2008

Current mood: dorky Life is short as everyone saids, but it could be deeper and deeper as much that I want. I went to the one cafe/restaurant in Daikanyama last night and then, suddenly the place reminded me one drama that I loved when I was 12 or so. It was the actual same cafe in that drama. And, "Deeper and deeper" was the theme song of that drama, then I also noticed that my life goes kind of like based upon that story. I learned piano since I was a child, and went to the university to study music, then I got into the modeling job but can't find the right job that exactly fits me:( It is the mixtured story of two main charactors though! Probably, I liked that drama because the charactors had similar ways to think as mine? Or my identity had been built while I was watching the drama?! If so, it seems like I've been mind controled by television since I was a kid:-0!!

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Wednesday, October 08, 2008

Current mood: chill

I'm still in Japan, since I got back from LA-San Francisco in August;)

There is a lot of things going on around me, I have also started new things such as acting lessons and brand new jobs in these few months..

When I came back to Tokyo in January this year, I was so confused because I almost totally forgotten what the Japanese culture was, and I didn't even know how to act like Japanese girl, in age 25.

Also, the one of the problems was, I was in THE competition thing at that time, with a lot of Japanese girls, and a French producer.

I didn't recorgnize that there was tons of differences between American culture and French culture, but there was the almost opposite point of view on everything.

It was really hard to me to get what is right, what is wrong, and then, of course there were huge culture differences between the United States and Japan.

I guess I had several personalities, when I was in that situation.

I had to act like the different person that fits to each different cultures and different circumstances.

But now, after nine months past, I think I've finally got what should I be.

I don't know what happened on my thought, though I feel llike now I know exactly who I am, and what do I wanna be.

I'll keep update my thoughts in this blog, because there are only few friends will find this I guess:p