I can't stop listening "Blue", I really like this song, I think even more than everything they made since Gara Gara Go. I meant it. Kpop fed up me since a while, I hate Kpop world, and fandom, and everything related, everyone is so... Can't they just listen there favorite band and stop? Haters, fandom war.. I mean, Seriously? Get a life! When I heard that some artist became depressed because of haters I just can't, all of this... This goin' too far. I'm out of this. I'm out of so many things by the way... It's been a WHILE seens I have drew something, I'm so ashamed. Anyway... The worst stay my life, I live in a micro system. I work, and I see Amel, and it's all. I don't talk to anyone (except people on Twitter smh), I don't want to see anyone, I just want to work and that the years stop, QUICKLY. I'm... Tired. I've discoverd this year that I can't, I mean I've the biggest diffuclty about according my life, my passion, my friends, my school. It's like this picture on tumblr remember? 'College life : Social life, Enough Sleep, Good grade. You can only pick two'. First semester I picked Social Life and Enough sleep - it seems - And you can see the result - A bit less than 7 - (I've tell my parents and they're not even mad, but I'm so MAD at me, at my ex bf smh... anyway). This semester I picked Enough Sleep and Good Grade... I can't see the result for now but I'm so stressed that I dreamt about that... WHY CAN'T I BE RICH AND PRETTY AND PERFECT?! WAAAEEE.
Next topic. I deleted my Facebook account, because it was useless for me. I'm a bit sad because I would not be able to talk with Mayu or Laura~ I'll send her my twitter, I can't think about make a new facebook or else, Facebook fed up me, everyone is a spy, everyone is hypocrite, and more of that : Seriously, why I should give a fuck about the life of people I barely never talk since the middle school?
Somewhere I think I'm lonely, and it's my fault. Sometime I think i'll be alone forever, but than, I just... Errrr When this note started being so depressed? I need to CHEER.THE.FUCK.UP! - The new haircut of bigbang's members are so.ugly.omgwhy - Anyway, I think getting weight because of the pill - la pilule - . I'm so ANGRY. I don't even eat this much (if I eat sometimes I just forget lol), and I keep to gain weight WHY? The pill. I'm 99.99% sure of that and THAT makes me angry. I've pass one year eating vegetable for lose my 21kg and then BEM 10kg because of THE PILL? the hell is that? I think about stop. But then it will be a mess so I don't really know what to do. I just don't becoming fat again. NO WAY, better die and I MEANT IT. I know, what a pity and blahblahblah but it's true.
I'm a bit nostalgic. I miss High school period, I miss talking to Mayu and Joe and Flo... I miss spend my time drawing instead of working. I need to make an order of priority. I can't have it all, but I don't want to lose everything so I'll try to pick more than two. I'm young, I'll sleep when I'll be dead. CHECK.
My future boyfriend need to be a mix of TOP and Cole Mohr. Please?
'You'll be the beast and I'll be the beauty-beauty, Who need true love as long as you love me truly?'
I need some fuckin change in my life. Like a 90° of change, UP SIDE DOWN, burn everything and become someone BRAND NEW like GD 2.3, something like that. God. I'm so fucked up.
Next topic. I deleted my Facebook account, because it was useless for me. I'm a bit sad because I would not be able to talk with Mayu or Laura~ I'll send her my twitter, I can't think about make a new facebook or else, Facebook fed up me, everyone is a spy, everyone is hypocrite, and more of that : Seriously, why I should give a fuck about the life of people I barely never talk since the middle school?
Somewhere I think I'm lonely, and it's my fault. Sometime I think i'll be alone forever, but than, I just... Errrr When this note started being so depressed? I need to CHEER.THE.FUCK.UP! - The new haircut of bigbang's members are so.ugly.omgwhy - Anyway, I think getting weight because of the pill - la pilule - . I'm so ANGRY. I don't even eat this much (if I eat sometimes I just forget lol), and I keep to gain weight WHY? The pill. I'm 99.99% sure of that and THAT makes me angry. I've pass one year eating vegetable for lose my 21kg and then BEM 10kg because of THE PILL? the hell is that? I think about stop. But then it will be a mess so I don't really know what to do. I just don't becoming fat again. NO WAY, better die and I MEANT IT. I know, what a pity and blahblahblah but it's true.
I'm a bit nostalgic. I miss High school period, I miss talking to Mayu and Joe and Flo... I miss spend my time drawing instead of working. I need to make an order of priority. I can't have it all, but I don't want to lose everything so I'll try to pick more than two. I'm young, I'll sleep when I'll be dead. CHECK.
My future boyfriend need to be a mix of TOP and Cole Mohr. Please?
'You'll be the beast and I'll be the beauty-beauty, Who need true love as long as you love me truly?'
I need some fuckin change in my life. Like a 90° of change, UP SIDE DOWN, burn everything and become someone BRAND NEW like GD 2.3, something like that. God. I'm so fucked up.
