⋈ hospital & clinical state⋈

ok my diary i owe you an explanation...




i stayed in the hospital for about 10 days,

and i was put to complex analysis and examinations



physically, everything turned ok.... so i'm healthy despite my iron lack anemia...


so actually.... the true diagnosis and the explanation for my sickness state turned out after i spoke with the psychologist


and that is : anorexia combined with bulimia in a mild state (this explains my anemia) and a medium depression


honestly..... this is something .... i never expected to have , it amazes me somehow


i never never ever realized that my will of staying thin MEANS anorexia...

i'm not even THAT thin actually, i gained a few pounds lately

but i admit i'm restraining my appetite... even now


actually i was always convinced that many girls do this .... but it seams i was ....kinda wrong...

....



i'm seeing a psychologist now ...

curious to see how it will go....


i hope she won't ask me to fat up


but despite this.....


i'm actually in a high spirit now

many cute thing happened lately

friends and family gathered around supporting me



thank you