I am in Tokyo -11ページ目

irritated

I had a serious fight with my mom today. Aghhhh

I was gonna smoke but i didn't because my bf would be sad if I told him that.
and If I didn't tell him, it would mean that I betrayed him.

I know it's not a big deal but it is sooo awesome that I haven't smoked at all even if I've been sooooo stressed, so I just wanted to mention it here a bit.haha

AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA everything totally sucks! I literally don't know what to do.

Oh yeah I had a first job interview today. It was fun.

random thoughts

My ex-bf called me today. We talked for the first time in like maybe 7 months except for some emails we exchanged once in a while. Was fun. I felt bad for having been kinda avoiding him for the past months. He was all the same. He said he might be able to work in Japan next year. He said its his only dream.

Well it's time for comapany visiting. Man I do this every single day. TIRED.

I wanna just go to NZ right nowwwwww man my mom doesn't let me go. huh

2nd blog today!

ブログ書きすぎかな笑

私、自己分析をすればするほど、「進むべき道」から遠ざかってきます。

自己分析、今までもけっこう無意識にもやってたつもりだけど私が感じていたことは間違ってなかった

なんか違う・・・

自己を分析していると、企業で働きたくないという考えがみえてくる

一生懸命そこに同化できるように考えてるのに、就職するためにやってんのに、

なんだこりゃ。

「自分らしさ」を見せてくださいっていうけどこんなあたしの自分らしさを買ってくれるところなんてありえない気が・・・

まっしゅーしょくがすべてじゃないしね

今やってることも無駄じゃないんだし

後悔しないように楽しんで生きなきゃね

birthday

It is my mom's birthday today Can't mention her age here.haha
I took her to this movie she'd always wanted to watch...

"Mamma Mia"

It was pretty good, though I am not really a big fan of Abba. (I didn't know they were Swedish, btw! )
My mom was crying next to me and I was freakin out to see her crying haha Was it THAT good? but anyways I am glad to watch it with my mom. I hope she will be like the mom in the movie. Yeah I like musicals but it is not really good to think too much about the story lines. good to just go with the flow kinda thing.

Speaking of which, my mom is f**kin scaryyyy when it comes to me going somewhere. I tried to tell her about my returning to NZ. I was like "um mom, I am thinking about going to NZ again at the end of spring holiday." She said "YOU ARE KIDDING ME RIGHT?" She totally shut me up so I backed off.