THE RING

I guess i should make it clear about the rings in my other blog because I have been receiving e-mails with all kinds of questions regarding it. lol

First off, the ring that I have is THIS. (right hand:ring finger)

Not THIS (left hand:ring finger) lol

This is my co-worker's engagement ring (Harry Winston) that she got from her BF of 8 years who proposed to her this May

I was just joking around, pretending that it was mine

Any ways, more about my actually ring laters...

(Well, most of you are probably not interested any more now that you know that its not my engagement ring lol)

Side Effects/Mariah Carey

I was a girl, you were "the man."
I was too young to understand.
I was naive, I just believed everything that you told me.
Said you were strong, protecting me.

Then I found out that you were weak.
Keepin' me there, under your thumb 'cause you were scared that I'd become much more than you could handle.
Shining like a chandelier that decorated every room inside the private hell we built, and I dealt with it.

Like a kid I wished I could fly away but instead I kept my tears inside 'cause I knew if I started I'd keep crying for the rest of my life with you.
I finally built up the strength to walk away.
Don't regret it but I still live with the side effects.

Wakin' up scared some nights still dreaming 'bout the violent times.
Still little protective 'bout the people that I let inside.
Still little defensive thinking folks be tryin' to run my life.
Still little depressed inside, I fake a smile and deal with the side effects.

Vacant inside, no one was there.
Couldn't be real, had to keep quiet.
Once in awhile, put up a fight.
It's just too much, night after night.
After awhile I would just lie,
You were dead wrong, said you was right.
Did what I could, just to survive.
Couldn't believe this was my life,
Flickering like a candle, doing my best to handle sleeping with the enemy aware that he was smothering every last part of me.

So I broke away and finally found the strength to breathe...

Forgive but I can't forget.
Every day I deal with this.
I live with the side efffects, but I ain't gonna let them get the best of me...

My Cat(s)

Haha I TOTALLY need this, because my cat, Chuka, always does this

Are there any cat people out there that suffer from this

Some of you may remember, but I had 2 cats, Tom and Chuka

Tom actually passed away this April

He was 14 years old and we all thought he was going to pass away from age.

We could tell that he was getting weaker, but i think he was in a pretty good condition for a 14 year old cat.

But that was not how he passed away.

He was hit by a car, right in front of our house.

Two ladies, who live in the apartment in front of us, found him and wrapped him up in a towel and were trying to put him in a box.

Right when I was heading out, I saw this and recognized the tail sticking out from underneath the towel.

It hurt that he had to go like that.

It hurt that I had to find him like that.

But I am grateful that I found him after someone was taking care of him.

I am also grateful that I found him before they took him away.

It doesnt make the pain or regrets go away.

But i should be thankful for the fact that Tom was around for 14 years, from when I was in the 4th grade.

To think that he was my first pet.

To think that we spent more than half of my life together...

I also should be thankful that I had that sholder to cry on.

And that sholder is still there, whenever we see a cat on the street who faced the same fate as Tom...

Probably didnt think that his entry would be so heavy from the picture attached, huh

Well, I didnt think so either...

But I guess this was another point in my life that I wanted to let you all know...