I feel LOST
Yahho!!!~о(ж＞▽＜)ｙ ☆It's been a long time since I posted hereΣ (゚ Д ゚). Okay, this might seem weird that I will post something like this here(· ∀ ·) grin.Honestly, I really feel down for the past few months. (T ^ T) ゚.. I dunno, I guess I really don't like sudden changes in my life(_ _.). I'm always like "omgee!!! Am i really an adult now?? like it's so fast...wait..wait..seriously?? Is this how it is??". I know some people might notice that I am still child at heart. I'm still 20, going 21 in few days!!! yaaay!!!(* ^ o ^ *). Sometimes, I don't know my purpose of existence on Earth. I would cry without a clear reason. I think it's not just me, some are experiencing this kind of thing as well but who knows. I FEEL LOST. Yaaah, LOST. Like, I know I have a noble job right now. I didn't expect that I would be something like this few years ago.I usually consider myself as someone who really needs guidance, someone who still needs to know more things. Which is exactly true by the way. I am not really confident with myself and that's one of my problems. I want to talk to someone about my thoughts but I guess nobody would care to listen. I would often contemplate with my life. I stroll around the city alone and thinking lots of things. Realizing all the bad decisions I made in life and I always end up hating myself. I pledged to myself this 2018 New Year that I won't look down to myself anymore, but I unfortunately, it's not easy. VRVHOIWEHF OCWRHWJFBWEDJQWD!!! WHY AM I LIKE THIS?o (; Δ;) o okay, calm down Mich. *clams down*.Right now, I only want to lie down and listen to music from classic to heavy metal, all day. But, it's not a good idea. I have so much things to do but I ain't yet doing it. Seriously, I don't have energy to do something I don't like to do...which is bad I guess. Well, I should get out of my comfort zone and yah learn something new, adapt from changes. Oh well, not easy but I can manage.I really want to work in a laboratory or do hand on work or activities. I basically prefer to work in my field of profession. Yes! Yes! Yes! but I can't yet. I am always bothered with everything. I don't know what exactly I willdo next. I would think it up always and it makes my brain tired. I overthink. YA! sorry forso much introductions. I will not tell everyting here anyway so yah, please care to read the translated lyrics of this song entitled "Lost" by BTS (방탄소년단) or Bangtan Sonyeondan. I love this song because I it's like telling what I feel nowadays. Moreover, I personally love BTS and its another story. There's a link attached below, so please feel free to click it and listen to the song. Sankyuu~v(^-^)vAlways following my flower path and swimming against the current,Michelle-----------------------------------------------------KOREAN:눈을 감고 아직 여기 서 있어사막과 바다 가운데 길을 잃고서여전히 헤매고 있어어디로 가야 할지 yeah이리도 많을 줄 몰랐어가지 못한 길도 갈 수 없는 길도I never felt this way before어른이 되려는지난 너무 어려운 걸이 길이 맞는지정말 너무 혼란스러never leave me alone그래도 믿고 있어 믿기지 않지만길을 잃는단 건그 길을 찾는 방법Lost my way쉴 새 없이 몰아치는 거친 비바람 속에Lost my way출구라곤 없는 복잡한 세상 속에Lost my wayLost my way수없이 헤매도 난 나의 길을 믿어볼래Lost my wayFound my wayLost my wayFound my way어디로 가는 개미를 본 적 있어단 한 번에 길을 찾는 법이 없어수없이 부딪히며 기어가는먹일 찾기 위해 며칠이고 방황하는You know쓸모 있어 이 좌절도난 믿어 우린 바로 가고 있어언젠가 우리가 찾게 되면분명 한 번에 집으로 와 개미처럼아직은 어려운 걸이 길이 맞는지정말 너무 혼란스러don’t you leave me alone그래도 믿고 싶어 믿기지 않지만길을 잃는단 건그 길을 찾는 방법Lost my way쉴 새 없이 몰아치는 거친 비바람 속에Lost my way출구라곤 없는 복잡한 세상 속에Lost my wayLost my way수없이 헤매도 난 나의 길을 믿어볼래So long기약 없는 희망이여 이젠 안녕So long좀 느려도 내 발로 걷겠어이 길이 분명 나의 길이니까돌아가도 언젠가 닿을 테니까I never I will neverI will never lose my dreamLost my way쉴 새 없이 몰아치는 거친 비바람 속에Lost my way출구라곤 없는 복잡한 세상 속에Lost my wayLost my way수없이 헤매도 난 나의 길을 믿어볼래Lost my wayFound my wayLost my wayFound my wayENGLISH TRANSLATION:I’m still standing here with my eyes closedLost between the deserts and oceansI’m still wanderingWhere should I go yeahI didn’t know there were this manyPaths I can’t go and paths I can’t takeI never felt this way beforeAm I becoming an adult?This is too hard,is this path right for meI am confusedNever leave me aloneI still believe even though it’s unbelievableTo lose your pathIs the way to find that pathLost my wayConstantly pushing without rest within the harsh rainstormsLost my wayWithin a complicated world without an exitLost my wayLost my wayNo matter how much I wander, I want to believe in my pathLost my wayFound my wayLost my wayFound my wayI once saw an ant going somewhereThere is no way to find the path at onceConstantly crashing and crawling forwardTo find something to eat, roaming for daysYou knowThere is a reason for all this frustrationI believe that we’re on the right pathIf we ever find itWe will return home at once just like an antThis is too hard,is this path right for meI am so confusedDon’t you leave me aloneI still want to believe even though it’s unbelieveableTo lose your pathIs the way to find that pathLost my wayConstantly pushing without rest within the harsh rainstormsLost my wayWithin a complicated world without an exitLost my wayLost my wayI wander, I want to believe in my pathSo longGoodbye to my hope with no promiseSo longEven if I’m slow I will walk with my own feetBecause I know this path is mine to takeEven if I go back, I will reach this path eventuallyI never I will neverI will never lose my dreamLost my wayConstantly pushing without rest within the harsh rainstormsLost my wayWithin a complicated world without an exitLost my wayLost my wayI wander, I want to believe in my pathLost my wayFound my wayLost my wayFound my wayLink: BTS (방탄소년단) – Lost
