Yahho!!!~ о(ж＞▽＜)ｙ ☆
It's been a long time since I posted hereΣ (゚ Д ゚). Okay, this might seem weird that I will post something like this here (· ∀ ·) grin.
Honestly, I really feel down for the past few months. (T ^ T) ゚.. I dunno, I guess I really don't like sudden changes in my life(_ _.). I'm always like "omgee!!! Am i really an adult now?? like it's so fast...wait..wait..seriously?? Is this how it is??". I know some people might notice that I am still child at heart. I'm still 20, going 21 in few days!!! yaaay!!! (* ^ o ^ *). Sometimes, I don't know my purpose of existence on Earth. I would cry without a clear reason. I think it's not just me, some are experiencing this kind of thing as well but who knows. I FEEL LOST. Yaaah, LOST. Like, I know I have a noble job right now. I didn't expect that I would be something like this few years ago. I usually consider myself as someone who really needs guidance, someone who still needs to know more things. Which is exactly true by the way. I am not really confident with myself and that's one of my problems. I want to talk to someone about my thoughts but I guess nobody would care to listen. I would often contemplate with my life. I stroll around the city alone and thinking lots of things. Realizing all the bad decisions I made in life and I always end up hating myself. I pledged to myself this 2018 New Year that I won't look down to myself anymore, but I unfortunately, it's not easy. VRVHOIWEHF OCWRHWJFBWEDJQWD!!! WHY AM I LIKE THIS? o (; Δ;) o okay, calm down Mich. *clams down*.
Right now, I only want to lie down and listen to music from classic to heavy metal, all day. But, it's not a good idea. I have so much things to do but I ain't yet doing it. Seriously, I don't have energy to do something I don't like to do...which is bad I guess. Well, I should get out of my comfort zone and yah learn something new, adapt from changes. Oh well, not easy but I can manage.
I really want to work in a laboratory or do hand on work or activities. I basically prefer to work in my field of profession. Yes! Yes! Yes! but I can't yet. I am always bothered with everything. I don't know what exactly I will do next. I would think it up always and it makes my brain tired. I overthink. YA! sorry for so much introductions. I will not tell everyting here anyway so yah, please care to read the translated lyrics of this song entitled "Lost" by BTS (방탄소년단) or Bangtan Sonyeondan. I love this song because I it's like telling what I feel nowadays. Moreover, I personally love BTS and its another story. There's a link attached below, so please feel free to click it and listen to the song. Sankyuu~ v(^-^)v
Always following my flower path and swimming against the current,
Michelle
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KOREAN:
눈을 감고 아직 여기 서 있어
사막과 바다 가운데 길을 잃고서
여전히 헤매고 있어
어디로 가야 할지 yeah
이리도 많을 줄 몰랐어
가지 못한 길도 갈 수 없는 길도
I never felt this way before
어른이 되려는지
난 너무 어려운 걸
이 길이 맞는지
정말 너무 혼란스러
never leave me alone
그래도 믿고 있어 믿기지 않지만
길을 잃는단 건
그 길을 찾는 방법
Lost my way
쉴 새 없이 몰아치는 거친 비바람 속에
Lost my way
출구라곤 없는 복잡한 세상 속에
Lost my way
Lost my way
수없이 헤매도 난 나의 길을 믿어볼래
Lost my way
Found my way
Lost my way
Found my way
어디로 가는 개미를 본 적 있어
단 한 번에 길을 찾는 법이 없어
수없이 부딪히며 기어가는
먹일 찾기 위해 며칠이고 방황하는
You know
쓸모 있어 이 좌절도
난 믿어 우린 바로 가고 있어
언젠가 우리가 찾게 되면
분명 한 번에 집으로 와 개미처럼
아직은 어려운 걸
이 길이 맞는지
정말 너무 혼란스러
don’t you leave me alone
그래도 믿고 싶어 믿기지 않지만
길을 잃는단 건
그 길을 찾는 방법
Lost my way
쉴 새 없이 몰아치는 거친 비바람 속에
Lost my way
출구라곤 없는 복잡한 세상 속에
Lost my way
Lost my way
수없이 헤매도 난 나의 길을 믿어볼래
So long
기약 없는 희망이여 이젠 안녕
So long
좀 느려도 내 발로 걷겠어
이 길이 분명 나의 길이니까
돌아가도 언젠가 닿을 테니까
I never I will never
I will never lose my dream
Lost my way
쉴 새 없이 몰아치는 거친 비바람 속에
Lost my way
출구라곤 없는 복잡한 세상 속에
Lost my way
Lost my way
수없이 헤매도 난 나의 길을 믿어볼래
Lost my way
Found my way
Lost my way
Found my way
ENGLISH TRANSLATION:
I’m still standing here with my eyes closed
Lost between the deserts and oceans
I’m still wandering
Where should I go yeah
I didn’t know there were this many
Paths I can’t go and paths I can’t take
I never felt this way before
Am I becoming an adult?
This is too hard,
is this path right for me
I am confused
Never leave me alone
I still believe even though it’s unbelievable
To lose your path
Is the way to find that path
Lost my way
Constantly pushing without rest within the harsh rainstorms
Lost my way
Within a complicated world without an exit
Lost my way
Lost my way
No matter how much I wander, I want to believe in my path
Lost my way
Found my way
Lost my way
Found my way
I once saw an ant going somewhere
There is no way to find the path at once
Constantly crashing and crawling forward
To find something to eat, roaming for days
You know
There is a reason for all this frustration
I believe that we’re on the right path
If we ever find it
We will return home at once just like an ant
This is too hard,
is this path right for me
I am so confused
Don’t you leave me alone
I still want to believe even though it’s unbelieveable
To lose your path
Is the way to find that path
Lost my way
Constantly pushing without rest within the harsh rainstorms
Lost my way
Within a complicated world without an exit
Lost my way
Lost my way
I wander, I want to believe in my path
So long
Goodbye to my hope with no promise
So long
Even if I’m slow I will walk with my own feet
Because I know this path is mine to take
Even if I go back, I will reach this path eventually
I never I will never
I will never lose my dream
Lost my way
Constantly pushing without rest within the harsh rainstorms
Lost my way
Within a complicated world without an exit
Lost my way
Lost my way
I wander, I want to believe in my path
Lost my way
Found my way
Lost my way
Found my way