Hello there! It's me again.
I'm writing this in the middle of the COVID-19 pandemic. It's not because I'm bored or I wanna kill time. 
Right now, I just thought I should express my feelings right now. I will be honest as much as possible about what I feel. If you have read my past stories, you can see how much I suffer from an existential crisis, and worse, depression. I can say that so far, I have improved. I'm putting all my heart as I write this.
How many months passed since I last wrote here? It was exactly a year ago. So many things happened in that span. I decided to do what I could in the last academic year of my service. I guess I did great. In the middle of 2019, I told myself that I would go somewhere to explore and keep in touch with my profession. All thanks and praises be to God, I achieved it. In October of last year, I attended a conference somewhere very far from my hometown. That feeling when I rode on an airplane once again? seeing the sky within your touch. It was so amazing! I was really happy! I'm with my close friend, we had so much fun. We met our college batchmates, professors, and other acquaintances. We also explored all the scenic and popular places on that island. That was truly memorable. Anyway, going to the main reason why we went there. Do you know that feeling when you meet someone very knowledgeable in the field like a scientist, who presented and shared their work with you? It really excites me. I feel ecstatic every single time I face them. It was the same emotion I had when I attended an international conference back in 2018. Once I heard the speaker talk, explain what he did, present his results, and show how those things impact our planet always left me in awe. It gives fire to my science-inclined heart. I feel inspired and there's satisfaction every time I learn something. "THIS IS WHAT I WANT, I LOVE, AND I DESIRE TO DO.", words that always come into my mind. At that time, I was also processing my papers for my graduate school application. I'm about to resign from my job and follow my heart. Fast forward, after that month, I received a notice of admission from the university I applied to. Again, I thank God for this. That was the moment that gave me hope and I saw how this will be a way to realize my dreams. Since I've been ranting about my life before, I decided to act and do the right things in order to reach my goals. And yes! That was it! December in of the same year, I went to the capital city to visit my friends. Yes! another gift from God. It was my first time traveling alone, although I knew someone during my flight there. My friend fetched me at the bus station as early as 4AM. I stayed there for just a day since we would be traveling to another place where my other friend stayed. It was a 2-hour ride. Actually, we went to the university where I'm going to study. I met my other batchmates there. We stroll around the vast campus. We were tired but I enjoyed it a lot. We parted ways that afternoon. Two of them went back to the capital city, the other one went back to his apartment, while I stayed with one of them. I stayed there for a night. I learned some of the things they frequently do in the university. I feel pressured because I can hear students reviewing along the corridor of the apartment, some were writing reports and stuff. WOW!!! they're the actual representation of diligent students. I should prepare myself now. The day after, I went out with another friend to visit their classrooms and laboratories. It looks sophisticated! again...fast forward, I went home that same day. It was the most remarkable escapade Lol!
My mental health is getting better so far. I keep remembering all the good things that happened to me so that I would feel better. I go on a walk alone, just mostly spend time with myself. It eases the pain I carry. I usually listen to music, watch BTS clips, and anime, read inspirational books, and pray. I still have so many things to prioritize as of now. By God's grace, I can make all of it happen. I look forward to traveling to different places too. Presently, I'm preparing myself to embark on a new journey. I do pray that God will help me on my way to my goals. God, please bless my journey. I believe that I can. I can make a difference. Amen.
I'll just cut it here. See you in my next life story. God bless us all!