To tell someone about you past after being stressed after work isn't as easy as I thought xD
She told me questions where I really had no idea what to answer.
I mean, when I ever thought about suicide then I don't look at my clock and imagne what daytime it is 0o...
either I really thought about whats the matter when I stuck in my fears ...
Another thing... some of the questions where so long that I already forgot what she said at the end of the question xDDD
Me always: " ehhhhhh ..."
.. what ?!!?? After one hour my head feels sucked out ...
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At work was a lot to do. So many people that want something from me. Sometimes it got on my nerves when they asked me queston that I answered this person about 100 times. When I can't answer something then I try to foud out... THAT'S NOT MY JOB BY THE WAY ....
I wasn't able to say no today ... I had a weak day. Ashes on me. I know anyone would cut my head off when I say no.
maybe tomorrow hu? xD
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Just at Sunday night Mero and me found out that we life in a dangerous neigborhood xD
On Sunday morning I came from work and wait for the tram. At this time 8 Police Busses drive in the same direction where I had to go.
The first thing I thought : "Hells Angels again uû?"
( anyone know about them ???
are there Hell's Angels in Japan ? xDDDD good question!!!)For those who don't know. It's a worldwide Rockerclub who are famous (here in Germany) for they crminal stroys. They often had fights with the other Rockerclub Bandidos.
Anyway... on Sunday night I watched the news where they showed my neighborhood and the Hells Angles ... they had a Meeting here. So the Police was there to be sure that none got shoot by anyone ... like last month .__.
We often see flyers from the Police where they ask about information about a murder...
:/ ... I think I should slooooooowly start to look for an other district here in Berlin xDD