It would be nice if the world wouldn't be like what it is.
It would be nice if you can close your and wish something so hard,
that it comes true.
But the truth is: Lif isn't so. Life is different.
Everything is so arduous at time.
My days are so creepy
And my thoughts fallow my everywhere i go
... sometimes they scary me
The onlything I just want
is to sleep and feelig recovered
I don't want to wake up and beeing scared cause it felt like I'm in my childhood
I want to have the strength that I need now
cause the next month will be very hard.
There is a lot that I have to process
I think I waited to long
but at time it isn't to late
I have the hope that it's going foreward
I talked a lot with my mom
I think she knows me best
and when i tell her about my problems and fears
she is the one who really know what i feel
of cause mero is there for me too
she shouldn't do anything then stay here with me
and don't let me be alone here
....
headache
....
I really miss the good times
nami