Lonely Packing

Last night was fun but sorta off. Another party at the Archstone, where they
won't let you not have a drink in your hand(they were right about Mexicans and
alcohol).
Anyways, I'm sitting here on my girlfriends bed going through all of my shit and
packing up to move to my apartment on Grove. Currently my girlfriend is out of
town visiting her mother, and I am having withdrawals from her... I have never
been so close to someone in my life and its driving me nuts. My friend Z once
bitched, that Lesbian couples are stupid because when they date they always
end up attached to the vaginas, making two individuals in one couple. So here I
am, alone in her room, crying, holding the stuffed animal she gave me for
Valentine's Day, wishing she were home again. ----- you see that? yeah, I
know its pathetic, I KNOW!
But the hurt goes on. I texted her saying that I missed her and I wanted to see
her, and asked if she would get on the webcam and this is what she said:
"I don't have Aim set up and I only get to spend so much time with my mom. I
see you everyday."
Ok I know moms are important but really?... All I wanted was to see her for
maybe 5 minutes, and it isn't too much effort to download a stupid program. I
really really really don't think I was asking much. But reading how I feel just
now, I sound like a needy bitch, and maybe I am, but I feel so very lonely right
now... about 80% of the time I have been up here I have felt out of place and
unable to relate to the Mainland people, and now my lover and best friend is
away and being somewhat of a jerk.
Well, I have a long way to go, I've only been able to go through my paperwork
and computer programs. I haven't even touched my clothes, or essentials yet.
Until next entry.. PEACE