Squeezed by the reality.
Chased and defeated by the time, pressure, and money.
Reminds me I shouldn't be dreaming every moment of my life.

Once more.

Just once more, I wanna dream.
って、一体なんでしょう?

私はYoutubeやらの動画サイトが結構好きで、よくサーフしてます。
最近の音楽、カラオケ用に練習したい曲、懐メロなどなど...

illegalなものも沢山あるので、一言でいいとも悪いとも言えませんが....
ただただMVが素敵なものや、浸りたいときには持って来いなんです。

んで、私はめったなことがない限りコメントを残したりしません。

でもやはり目に入りますよね、すごい罵倒、卑下...etc
もちろんポジティブなものも多々あります。

最近多く目に入るのは、私が幼かった頃に聞いていた曲へのコメント。
「最近の音楽はただうるさいだけで....」「商売目的の楽曲が多くて...」
「何故こういう音楽が最近は出回らないのでしょう?」「こういう本当の音楽に残ってほしい」
などなど、言いたい放題もいいところ。

本当の音楽。

といってる私も、同じ年代の友達と話すときは、やはり以前の音楽が良く聞こえてしまい、
やれ「~(誰々)の~(何々)みたいに、歴史に残る音楽は今後出てくるのかな?」、
やれ「今の子達が今の音楽を聴いて抱く感情は、私達があの頃~を聞いて抱いた感情と同じなのかな?」

本当にすき放題言ってます。

でも客観的に評価してみると...

コメントを残した方の「本当の音楽」の定義は何でしょう?
その人の本当が、万人の、正しい「本当」なのでしょうか?

私は、ジェネレーションがキーなのだと思います。

例えば私達が中学生の頃いいと思って何度も繰り返し、カセットを巻き戻して、CDをリピートに設定して、
MDを持ち歩いて聞いていた音楽。先のジェネレーションを生きた方達が同じように感じていたとは思えません。

「昔はもっと耳に残る歌だった」

「本当に歌がうまい人しか歌手になれなかったのに今は...」

両親の代の方が口にするのをよく聞いた気がします。

commercializingが進み、ただ歌がうまいだけでは歌手になれない、
むしろ少し可愛ければ多少音痴でも「売れる」。

最近流行の「おバカ」キャラ、アイドル、天然、毒舌キャラ、芸人.....you name it.

どうなっていくのか分からない日本の未来。

でかい口をたたく私が実際にしていることなんてたかが知れているのですが、
私が言いたいのは、良い悪いと2択で判断するよりも、もっと人を傷つけない方法があるのでは?ということ。

アメリカ人は討論が好き、というのは紛れもない事実。
卑下する人もいるし、皮肉な言い方が癖な人も多い。
意見に多かれ少なかれ嫌味が入っていたりバッシングの要素がある人は、どうしても子供のケンカにしか聞こえない。

でも、本当に討論が上手=説得力がある人は、人を傷つけない。

コメントを残していた人みんなが必ずしも反感的で人を傷つけていたわけではないけど、
アーティストに対して、「昔と比べてこれは...」と勝手な価値観で判断するのはスマートではないし、
「批判するのはよくない」という意見を批判でコーティングするのも決してスマートでない。

最近自分がされたら嫌なことを他人にする人が増えたきがする...
"If I were in your shoes"的な考え、もうレトロすぎるのかしら?
教育が変わってるの?ジェネレーション・ギャップ?!

でもあれもこれも、全て私の価値観で書いたもの。これもまたbiasなのかもしれない。

と思ったら何も書けないね?! 笑

本当はビビりで、コメントしようかと思ったけどバッシングが怖くてここにしか書けなかった...苦笑

とにかーく!

「本当の音楽」なんて誰が決めるものでもなくて、
好きな音楽を好きになればいい。嫌いな音楽は聴かなければいいじゃない?
人が好きな音楽を批判するのは、好き嫌いをなくせ、って言ってるのと同じくらいガキっぽい。
みんなが同じものを好きで、同じものを嫌いになってたら、差別なんて存在しないよね?

人類に個人差なんて存在しないよね?

でも、isn't that what makes a life more interesting?

But again, that's just what I think and you don't have to agree with me :)

Love,
M.
So I had some friends visiting me, one from Japan and her friend from Boston.

Oh boy, wasn't it a lot of work!

In my defense, I don't mean to complain here because I don't like her.
I like her. I respect her. And I think she's mature for her age but....

Obviously two is stronger than one....

I had to pick her up at the airport even though I had class till right before the arrival.
It takes me more than an hr to get to the airport by the TRAIN!! Yeah she wanted me to pick her up....

When she arrived here, she didn't know ANY English so I had to take her everywhere and translate everything for her.
I told her it's totally fine if she come here and stay at my place or whatever but I am busy and going to a university is not like Japan where once you got into a university, you don't really do anything.
Getting in the university is hard enough that that's almost like the ultimate goal and they usually party and stuff.

But it's not the same here. Students actually study here and we have lots and lots of assignments.
If you don't study, you sure will fail the course and there is no miss more than three classes to pass the course.

I don't know if she just didn't know the difference or that she didn't care, but she needed assistance in everything.
Yeah she was young but i don't think that's the main reason I'm super exhausted still now, a few days passed her departure back to Japan...

Anyways, touring was kinda fun. I took her to my school and she enjoyed it because it's a lot different from the ones in Japan. My school's small considered to other universities across the country, one because it's in the city and most big school are located in the suburbs where there is a lot more land for cheap.

I took her to a dinner with a person I know from my previous work and we went to an Italian restaurant. (And we were treated!!)
I took her to a "hip" cafe in wicker where I used to spend so many hours studying, smoking, and drinking coffee. It's been relocated and you can no longer smoke after the smoking ban in 08, but it's still cool. Ilike the arty area and its atmosphere. It's feels so free.

And then her friend from Boston came on Thursday. I took them to Uno's pizza, waited for more than an hr, finally got seated and ate the Deep Dish Chicago Pizza. We then moved to the Hancock!! We went to the Signature room where you can see a great view of Chicago. It is just so mesmerizing. You just become speechless.

We went back to my school the next day and that's when my friend lost her digital camera.... it was so new someone must have stolen it.... feel so bad but i kept telling her to watch her back because it's not as safe as it is in Japan where you can safely sleep on trains for hours....

We went to the Bulls' game too. it was cool! Even though we lost the game and my favorite player was gone this season.... it was still the feeling you get from the liveliness and looking at in-shape athletes!!

On Sat, we headed for some thai and then I had to leave them at the Lincoln Pk Zoo because I had to work for a wedding. It was longer than I expected but hey, as long as I get paid, I can't complain :)

Then we went back home instead of going to my friends' beer tasting party because my friend was coming down on a cold...........................

anyways, they wouldn't keep quiet at my apt where I live with a nagging roommate who's always moody.

And then we went to some museums and parks around the city, took a boat ride to Navy Pier, had a dinner with one of my roommates and our friend at a Mexican cuisine, and then came back home from their last night in Chicago...

The next morning I saw them off at O'Hare.

.............................................it was the longest week!

it's solely a journal for me to remember what I did.

It was a long week full of touring and stuff but the sad part is, I don't remember much.....

I wish I had the same week with whom I truly want to be :P

Love,
M.