in a few words - i was betrayed by my close friend... i'm not angry at her... i don't hate her... but it's so greatly painful to be deceived by someone for so long. and not just by her, but by another [ex] close person of mine. their betrayal dosn't bother me right now. but as a matter of fact, it's so painful to realise that 4 years of my life i lived with such a lie by my side . and i've never thought i'd be hurted in such a way.
such questions as [was i never loved?], [was everything i believed a lie?], crush my mind.
i'm just really shocked... and it's like i've lost faith in friendship and love 
