Wow... I can't believe it has been 20 days already.
I guess time does pass fast and time does heal.
It's not no more pain but maybe I can go with no more cry.
Still it's difficult to hear any information about the four.
I can't believe that I actually decided to go to the concert. Maybe somehow I want to believe that maybe he would show up or they would talk about him. Well, not going to happen, right?
I want him to shine cuz I believe in him so much and he is so talented. But the same time, at the back of my head, I always have this thought "does he really fit for this world?" I don't know.
The only thing I could do is to bless and to pray for him at different shrines. What we can do is so little and so powerless. Also, the more I think about it, the more I feel maybe he just wants to be a normal person. Then everything I have been doing is just useless and weird actually. If he is a public figure, searching for his information is what fans usually do. But if he is not anymore, I'm just a stalker. No matter how much I want to see him on stage, I can't change any fact.
Other things recently....
I guess it would be job hunting. VERY SICK OF IT. I know I haven't been doing it for that long, either but it's frustrated when people who were putting less efforts got offers before me. And I AM TRYING VERY HARD.
Final project, design festa, part-time....dont feel like doing anything.
