internship
yest was the last day of my internship. made choc truffles for my colleagues and is relieved to receive relatively positive comments back.
think from now on, i will wake up in the early mornings feeling pangs of emptiness...because a habit i have gotten used to for 3 months is suddenly forcefully gotten rid of. I dont know in the corporate world, how long will they rem me after i left.. but i really do enjoy the company of the friends i have met there. although the age group varies but we really have fun together. if without them, i dont think i would be able to endure the tough 3 months of being in a foreign place.
well..i also know that if i ever join back the company after my graduation and encounter the same people again..the interaction i have with them then would be diff. i know that they are treating me well because as an intern, i have no direct connection to them during work. so they can afford to keep their relationship w me close and on friends basis, once i become their colleague, they would need to protect their own interest and keep our relationship professional. but anyhow, im thankful for their kindness and guidance during work. afterall they have no obligations to be nice even if i am just an intern. it is them who have made me see the reality of the working world outside..in a mild manner...and i will always rem my first internship, my first official job in a big corporation and my first lesson in life.
thanks to the following people:
hwee hong, david, janet: thank you guys so much for ur treat on thurs, im sorry i didnt tell u im allergic to prawns and not a big fan of fried food, causing the lunch to be quite a damper..but i'm really grateful for your intention of treating me.. you a guys are really nice people...=)
rina, finn, susan, ps, cs, dawn: thank you for accompanying me through these 3 months for lunch talk cock sessions, without you guys i dunno how am i suppose toe endure the gruelling 3 months in a foreign environment alone.
john: thanks for always blabbin to me in jap, haha it really help me improve. and now that my internsip ended, u owe me a story! and ya...get more rest during the nite and stop floating around ne?
looyen: thanks girl for always being there, really grateful that u are comboftable enough w me to share ur hurt from your past love experiences, and also let me be the only one in the company to know when u got attached. ur secret is safe w me.. i havent let anyone knoe yet.. =X shhhhhhh
janette: thank you for always dropping by to chat w me to lessen my boredom, and luckily for your cheerful and bright personality that i can open up and be my usual chatty self..thanks for listening to my love problems although can tell u r not interested..HAHA and most of all, thanks for giving me that pair of shoes, i REALLY appreciated it..its lik giving water to a dying man in the desert..i was getting emotional and disappointed with the interaction between colleagues. its ur pair of shoes that bring me hope and woke me up..thank you =)
aidah and mani: a BIG thank you to the both of you. my mentor my teacher my friend and my mother and elder brother in this big family of pb..words alone cannot express how grateful i am to you..thank you for all the lessons u have taught me in life, at work and at dealing with human relationship..you guys made everyday at pb so enjoyable..and hope i am missed as much as i am missing you guys.
to sum it up, i think working life is somewhere that you can be nice where people are still willing to help and clear your doubts. however they dont trust u so easily and is afraid to let u noe too much in case u betrayed them..at work its all about protecting yourself, unlike in sch where grades,the most important thing, is only affected by your own efforts. emotions are what binds people together there. at work, its all about the practically of things, ur "friend" can push the blame to you, because they just want to keep their job and keep their paycheck, friendship is replaceable and social interations are only required to be maintained at a level so that people arent prejudise against u, thus affecting ur work performance. take everything with a pinch of salt, dont say too much.
if something doesnt feel right, then dont do it..saying nothing is always better than sayin the wrong thing..
ultimately no matter how god ur abilities are, you need to show it to ur boss, if he/she doesnt noe it..it doesnt matter even if the whole office does.able to present urself to ur boss is even more important than ur abilities.
think from now on, i will wake up in the early mornings feeling pangs of emptiness...because a habit i have gotten used to for 3 months is suddenly forcefully gotten rid of. I dont know in the corporate world, how long will they rem me after i left.. but i really do enjoy the company of the friends i have met there. although the age group varies but we really have fun together. if without them, i dont think i would be able to endure the tough 3 months of being in a foreign place.
well..i also know that if i ever join back the company after my graduation and encounter the same people again..the interaction i have with them then would be diff. i know that they are treating me well because as an intern, i have no direct connection to them during work. so they can afford to keep their relationship w me close and on friends basis, once i become their colleague, they would need to protect their own interest and keep our relationship professional. but anyhow, im thankful for their kindness and guidance during work. afterall they have no obligations to be nice even if i am just an intern. it is them who have made me see the reality of the working world outside..in a mild manner...and i will always rem my first internship, my first official job in a big corporation and my first lesson in life.
thanks to the following people:
hwee hong, david, janet: thank you guys so much for ur treat on thurs, im sorry i didnt tell u im allergic to prawns and not a big fan of fried food, causing the lunch to be quite a damper..but i'm really grateful for your intention of treating me.. you a guys are really nice people...=)
rina, finn, susan, ps, cs, dawn: thank you for accompanying me through these 3 months for lunch talk cock sessions, without you guys i dunno how am i suppose toe endure the gruelling 3 months in a foreign environment alone.
john: thanks for always blabbin to me in jap, haha it really help me improve. and now that my internsip ended, u owe me a story! and ya...get more rest during the nite and stop floating around ne?
looyen: thanks girl for always being there, really grateful that u are comboftable enough w me to share ur hurt from your past love experiences, and also let me be the only one in the company to know when u got attached. ur secret is safe w me.. i havent let anyone knoe yet.. =X shhhhhhh
janette: thank you for always dropping by to chat w me to lessen my boredom, and luckily for your cheerful and bright personality that i can open up and be my usual chatty self..thanks for listening to my love problems although can tell u r not interested..HAHA and most of all, thanks for giving me that pair of shoes, i REALLY appreciated it..its lik giving water to a dying man in the desert..i was getting emotional and disappointed with the interaction between colleagues. its ur pair of shoes that bring me hope and woke me up..thank you =)
aidah and mani: a BIG thank you to the both of you. my mentor my teacher my friend and my mother and elder brother in this big family of pb..words alone cannot express how grateful i am to you..thank you for all the lessons u have taught me in life, at work and at dealing with human relationship..you guys made everyday at pb so enjoyable..and hope i am missed as much as i am missing you guys.
to sum it up, i think working life is somewhere that you can be nice where people are still willing to help and clear your doubts. however they dont trust u so easily and is afraid to let u noe too much in case u betrayed them..at work its all about protecting yourself, unlike in sch where grades,the most important thing, is only affected by your own efforts. emotions are what binds people together there. at work, its all about the practically of things, ur "friend" can push the blame to you, because they just want to keep their job and keep their paycheck, friendship is replaceable and social interations are only required to be maintained at a level so that people arent prejudise against u, thus affecting ur work performance. take everything with a pinch of salt, dont say too much.
if something doesnt feel right, then dont do it..saying nothing is always better than sayin the wrong thing..
ultimately no matter how god ur abilities are, you need to show it to ur boss, if he/she doesnt noe it..it doesnt matter even if the whole office does.able to present urself to ur boss is even more important than ur abilities.
why
why is it that it is so easy to snap at someone close to us, while a little kindness from a stranger/not -so-close friend can get us so touched?
i believe that we feel touched when someone did some extra kind thing which we didnt expect them to do. and irritation/disappointment comes in when someone we expect to perform in a certain way failed to do so...
i guess that we have too high expectation of those close to us, and too low expectation of those whom we dont know well.
i believe that we feel touched when someone did some extra kind thing which we didnt expect them to do. and irritation/disappointment comes in when someone we expect to perform in a certain way failed to do so...
i guess that we have too high expectation of those close to us, and too low expectation of those whom we dont know well.
reflections
saw yc's facebook by chance yest..think hes having fun and living his life well =) thats good..glad that hes able to move on...
yc and matt
the 2 guys im indebted to for the rest of my life... looking back at how both relationships were...i realized how childish and immature i've been, wasting and squandering their love away.. they offer me their hearts...yet i push them away fro trivial reasons.. whatever they do and achieve and whoever they met and love later on their lives will have my most sincere and heartfelt blessings...i owe both of them too much...
maybe my life hav been too smooth sailing.. meeting nice guys who really loves and cherish me..whom i have taken for granted and thrown carelessly away..how much i have hurt them i cant imag..
im terribly sorry and sincerely apologize here for my wrong doings.. though i believe u guys will never get to see this blog..
yc and matt..bearbear and maomao..
ur baby and leafie here sincerely wish for ur forgiveness and give u my blessing for success and love in your future ahead...
.....i shall quietly await my retribution
yc and matt
the 2 guys im indebted to for the rest of my life... looking back at how both relationships were...i realized how childish and immature i've been, wasting and squandering their love away.. they offer me their hearts...yet i push them away fro trivial reasons.. whatever they do and achieve and whoever they met and love later on their lives will have my most sincere and heartfelt blessings...i owe both of them too much...
maybe my life hav been too smooth sailing.. meeting nice guys who really loves and cherish me..whom i have taken for granted and thrown carelessly away..how much i have hurt them i cant imag..
im terribly sorry and sincerely apologize here for my wrong doings.. though i believe u guys will never get to see this blog..
yc and matt..bearbear and maomao..
ur baby and leafie here sincerely wish for ur forgiveness and give u my blessing for success and love in your future ahead...
.....i shall quietly await my retribution