もう帰国までたった6日
荷物は大分減ってきました。帰国の日までには片付けられるといーなー、、ってかせな。
最近こっちの生活が楽しい。今までtorontoにきてからずっと一人で過ごすことが多かったけど今の居酒屋バイトを始めてからたくさん友達ができた。
そのおかげで休みは家で過ごすことが多かったけど最近は毎日のように出かけてる。
昨日も仕事場で仲のいいメンバーと夕食をとったり、これから日本に帰ってこっちの仲間に会えなくなると思うと寂しくなる。。
I have been thinking, how I can describe myself as a person.
What kind of person am I? Has anyone thought like me before?
It's kind of wierd that I have never thought of what kind of person I am....
I have been thinking if there is a personality problem with me since I can't make many friends nor can I enjoy hanging out with people.
Am I judgemental?
I think I am a type of person who loves to be extraordinary. I always want to be better than others.
I want to be cool. Just like when you are teenager. nothing has changed. I still want to stand out.
Getting tattoos might be a way of doing it to be cool or coming to Canada to stay a couple years. Making music on my own, speaking English.
These aren't what's considered ordinary, these makes me stand out from others.
I enjoy being different from others I think this is what the word individual comes from.
But I sometimes feel discomfort being different from others.
I am afraid of being looked biased.
That's why I hide my tattoos from people.
People judge you based on what you put on or how you dress.
That is wrong, I know a lot of people do it even I do sometimes.
But I really feel judging people based on the look is a big mistake. You won't know the person until you speak to them.
I think most times, how someone looks represent who they are. It's a representation of how someone what to look like or be looked like.
But sometimes, they dress the way they do just because they felt like dressing the way they are now. It doesn't always represent who they are.
There are many people who don't get this idea.
I was actually one of them until I get my first tattoo.
At the time I felt I don't want people to judge me because what kind of tattoo I have, and that's when I realized true meaning of not to judge an individual based on the appearance.
I became the one being easily judged by how I look.