Bored

I don't have much to write. I've been suffering with severe allergies so I'm pretty sick. It's been nice and sunny out and on Saturday I get to go to another dollfie meet up here in NYC. I'll show you all some dollfies and pictures how's that since I have nothing to say haha! o(^▽^)o

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This is my cellphone and all it's cute little cellphone charms.
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My Renji (from BLEACH) cellphone charm
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My Hyde cellphone charm
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hide cellphone charm (^∇^)
(I believe Reika had the same on HIS cellphone for awhile too haha)
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Cute heart cellphone charm
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A ha! My ultra cool Moomin cellphone charm!
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And what kind of fan would I be if he wasn't my cellphone's screensaver?
Opening it and seeing his face makes me happy ﾍ(ﾟ∀ﾟ*)ﾉ

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So now as I promised I'll show you one of my.....8? Dollfies.


Here is Cain one of my precious dolls. γ(▽´ )ﾂヾ( ｀▽)ゞ
Maybe one day I'll show you all the rest of them.

OMG!!

Omg omg omg omg I feel like I'm dreaming, I'm shaking and crying and I feel dizzy. I just kept repeating "please let it be true" over and over.

X-JAPAN? IN MY HOMETOWN???? Oh lord in heaven.

I can't stop crying and shaking, I can barely type. I've had such a shitty year...I felt lastnight like I wanted to die, I begged God to end my life and then I see this.

I was crying out of happiness and I felt as if hide had wrapped his arms around me and said in his cute nasally voice "You be happy now." Omg I can't...you really have no idea what this will mean to me.

I HAVE TO GO! I have to! there's no "ifs" I have to.

Was it fate? Is it fair not to want to share the info because I'm afraid everyone will find out and then I may miss out on tickets?

I'm so scared of not getting a ticket my stomach hurts. I feel like I'm going to throw up.

I can't force myself to leave my chair. I'm afraid I'll miss an important bulletine.

All these years all I prayed for was a way to show the world what hide means to me and here it is! DUDE HERE IT FUCKING IS!

I now know why Reika was so damn happy and emotional. I feel the damn same way and the concert is MONTHS away.

Please God, please let me get a ticket. I need to. I really really do. Make is possible, please. Just this once I'm asking for something really selfish. I just want to remember hide and see X Japan and Sugizo. Please, I beg you.


hide, I feel you. I'll be there even if I have to sell everything to get a ticket, I will.

This is my chance. My favorite band, the band I cry for, the band I laugh for, the band that has had the most impact on my life besides Madeth Gray'll.

Please pray for me.

Angry

I'm such an angry person these past few days. I told someone off last night and all this drama started as a result of it and now a person I thought was my friend got "hurt" I guess. I'm not going to go into detail really but I kinda regret even writing the stupid thing about the orginal girl...even though I hate her with everything inside me.

Liking Jrock has made me angry. Well more like "re-liking". Because I remember why I left the fandom in the first place too many stupid fangirls. Mostly all of them kind of dribble in from Dir en Grey or like Miyavi but how can I turn my back on Dir en Grey? I've loved them so many years. They mean a lot to me. Turning my back on my fellow "fans" means stepping away from Dir en Grey because a majority of their fans are mindless dopes. I just can't do that, as much as I want to.

I stepped away from Jrock for a long time, liking, in secret, the bands I hold dear to me. I've never had issues or problems with Doremidan's fanbase, they seem to pretty much have respectful, smart, beautiful people as their fans.

Usually when I referr to fans I'm talking about American fans or "most" American fans. I'm not saying all of them are "fangirls" or "fanboys" or that I hate them all. I just hate the ones that make it hard to like a band because all they do is dribble retarded.

*siiiiiigh* Sorry, I shouldn't be ranting again.

Let's be happy shall we? Let's look foward to good things to happen. Things will work out as they should, we have to have faith.

This weekend I'm going to a "Dollfie Meet Up" here in New York. You know what dollfies are? or well Super dollfies? Do any of you own them? It'd be cool to have friend's here that like them too.

I'm looking foward to that and spending some time with my niece in the near week.

I hope you all have a great day.