Then when you ask me “What do you want in your life?,” then, to be honest with you, I am actually very satisfied with what I have and notice that there is nothing I want. Since I am living truthfully to my heart, I am surrounded by lots of love and my hands are filled with love and more over my heart is very warm and fulfilled.
However, if you ask me “Are you satisfied with what you have now?,” then maybe what I have now is not all that I want.
It started with the death of my most beloved person when I was a child, then I became a nurse, and with my current job I have faced many deaths together with people I know, and at the same time had many occasions to think about the meaning of live. Currently I am facing a couple peoples’ life and death simultaneously. Facing death is a life itself and, I think, it gives lots of meanings to live. We can wait death with fear and anxiety or can see it as a goal after fulfilling our life. I believe we can choose when to die. It is my desire to say I was so happy to be alive at the end of my life, and also it’s my desire to have at least one person recalls me and says it was so nice to meet me.
After all, since I have not reached the point where I can say to myself “You’ve done your life. Now go and rest!,” I choose to be here to live. I want to enjoy being a live, want to be connected with and love a lot more people and all beings until the end of the earth, also want to experience many different things, want to express myself in my own way, and want to give birth to a child of my loved one and raise him/her. By doing all the above, I want to be, even at least little, a help for the higher power that nurtures us and want to self-proof how to live as a part of the universe; this is actually my true real desire. Even though I said I am satisfied, how big desire = avarice I have!; which surprises me. Thanks to my avarice, my life journey will continue happily ever after (LOL).