帰宅して、両親と妹に食事の場で再発したことを話した
泣きはしなかったけど、食卓がシーンとなった
次の手術は全摘出。できれば胸を残したかった。
再発なのか、取り残しだったのかも不明瞭だったことから、またセカンドオピニオンを取ることにした
主治医は私の手術を一刻も早くしたく、時間があまりなかったが、納得しないままできる決断ではなかった
1回目の手術の際にもセカンドオピニオンを取った癌研有明病院にまた行くことになった
I went home and told my parents and sister over dinner
I didnt cry this time, but felt the heavy atmosphere over the dining table
The next surgery will be full mastectomy. I wanted to keep my breast if I could
It was not clear whether it was recurrence, or whether the tumor had not been fully removed during the first surgery.
We decided to go for a second opinion again to see what another doctor from a different organization would say.
My doctor wanted to do the surgery as soon as possible, considering how much time it took to form into a tumor.
But it wasnt a decision I could make without fully understanding myself.
We decided to go back to Cancer Institute Hospital of Japanese Foundation for Cancer Research again, where I got my second opinion for my first surgery