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-i always want to say this but you always sing different lyrics from the cd.

k:yea everytime

-you change the melody too. do you have a stock of these and then just pick out one of them?

k:no no! i just think of them right there. so even if you did hear what im saying some of them wont make sense at all. But then i just let out my emotions and what im thinking straight out so some of them might make sense but most of them probably dont.

-i just thought that was very mysterious and wondered if you thought of them off the top of your head.

k: like i said before, when you get pissed off you get pissed off right?and sad when you're sad? same thing

-are there times where you can't think of anything?

k:no. im always sad and im always pissed so no. im never satisfied. if im satisfied i would probably only get happy lyrics...yea.

-that would have a lot of opposition to the band right?

k:yea. if this band always had a happy base/idea i wouldn't be here.there arent any happy moods to begin with in this band, we're always sad. if there comes a day when we think we should try a happy,bright fun image in dir en grey thats the day ill quit!I WILL QUIT!!!

- thats pretty intense,

k:no shit. even if we only get 20 or 30 people in a small gig, we would never do it. if we do ill quit. thats common sense.

-that would mean you wouldnt be able to express what you want right?

k: no, not that. is there a meaning in doing something you dont want to do?in music, no right?

-you have written all the lyrics but what if you had to sing lyrics that another member wrote?

k:i wouldnt sing it.

-what kind of lyrics do you think other members would right?

k:i dont know.i dont care about other peoples lyrics. by the way ive never read other peoples lyrics at all, "at all"!maybe i was reading lyrics by artists i liked until i was 18 but...

well, ive said i hate how i was before "MACABRE". after the release of "MACABRE" ive never read lyrics from another artist!

-i see, so thats where its coming from.

k:thats why i dont care. even if i read others peoples lyrics my reaction is "so?". i find that theres no connection. im pretty excessive huh?

-so that explains the kyo before and after "MACABRE"...

k:yea.yea.yea.yea.

i used to be like if i like an artist i liked them alot and tried to absorb techniques of other artist but i was too soft at that time and i hated that.i just hated how i thought of things back then.

-so after "macabre" until now, the lyrics that came from you...or i should say all your "expressions" aren't influenced by other people but directly from you.

k:yes, exactly

-so the artist you recommended earlier has nothing to do with lyrics?

k:yea, i dont read lyrics and i dont care how the melody is.from artists...i see if i feel something from them or not. no matter how beautiful the melody is, its just "a beautiful melody". to me it only looks like "a pretty flower".

-i see.

k: and i dont care about that. easy right? its easy to understand but hard at the same time, i think.

-is there a wall that you just cant get over?

k:no...are there?no, probably no. atleast i dont think there is. i dont know what other people think but.

-is there a difference in the kyo in DEG and the kyo in normal life?

k:no

-you're always you huh?(laughs)(im guessing he just read the question from a paper)

k:i am aren't i?you can tell right? people tell me im different on stage but im the same...really

-there a probably a lot of people wanting to become a vocalist out there but can you give advice to them?

k:"be random"

-a secret to long success...?

k:yea "be random"

-do you have things you try not to do in front of people?

k:(gives thought to it for a while)no...and i think this is normal but never judge by looks. and age. talk to people normally,older or younger in the beginning.even if theyre younger, if i can see that they try hard in their lives and i can respect them as a preson i would talk to them normalls and if i think they arent i wouldnt talk to them, not even get close to them.

-there are a lot of people that are working hard right now, but are there any people that you think is trying hard?

k: i dont have that many people i know, at work theres a coulpe people i think is trying hard.(laughs).a"couple"! ok? at this workplace.

-wow...

k:wirte that down ok?

-...!?thats harsh.

-DEG was a guest for a couple LINKIN PARK show but has that expierience effected you in some way?

k: ..."damned japanese". (he means the people who just came to see LINKIN PARK)including the PA!(is PA like the sound system?)

-ill write that if i can.

k:no, write it. theres nothing wrong with that.

-it went on for 2days but the 2nd day...

k:theyre"damned japanese" but im proud of our fans who came to see us...how should i say this...who came to have fun. without worrying about the people around them. i think thats great. i respect them for that.

thats why that day i sang especially for , of coarse for me, but for the people who came to see DEG.

-so it was for the people who understand DEG just like your doing this interview for the fans.

k:yea.thats all i see.

-but we heard positive conversations towards DEGs stage

k:hmm...if the PAs were better there would have been better reactions.(laughs bitterly)

-(laughs bitterly)i heard TOMMY was also mad.

k:yea, of coarse!

-DEG has a concept of "pain" but what is the easiest way to express that?

k:huh? isnt it what we do now?

-concerts.

k:concerts. what else can we do?

-in this tour you havent scratched yourself as much.

k:yea i havent.

-but in SHINKIBA...(gig in tokyo)

k:3rd day, yea

-is there a difference in your emotions when you do it and when you dont?

k:just when i feel like it.

-whats the feeling you have when you start scratching yourself?

k:aweful

-is it a feeling where you just want to destroy?

k:no, when i realize im already bleeding

-all the sudden?

k:yea. when i realize i just...have a pin and im on the box