so basically. i got sick on Thursday. I'm still sick but not as bad like on Friday. running and headbanging is really not a good idea when you're sick. yeah. I don't really want to continue. my iPhone doesn't let me type side ways when blogging and so it takes me longer to type posts and stuff. plus I am sleepy! Bonne nuit (:
Long time no post! I have been busy with school and whatnot. I have no homework today which allows me to post more, especially on here and tumblr. I'm neglecting this blog more though.
Any who, It seems I have gained weight from Summer break! A friend took full body pictures of me and I can definitely tell the difference! WAAAAH. I guess my eating cycle was totally off during the Summer and so I ate really late at night, ate bigmeals and pretty much whatever plus sitting at the computer. EVERYTHING WENT TO MYWAISTLINE. BLAHHHHH. I still wear the same size jeans, but I have noticed that everything is more tighter. OH FUUUUUUU.
And so, I started a plan to cut down my meal proportions. Exercise every single day. If I miss a day. I double up on the time I exercise. I won't eat past 8/9pm.
My mood hasn't been very....good. I guess. It's getting better though. I had to take a few minutes or so to confirm things. I feel like the weight has been lifted off my shoulders.
I failed a quiz today. First grade ever to be put into the grade book making my grade to be a F. I'm so mad. I usually get A's on the 2nd week of school. Always, actually. Now I have to make my way up to an A. It's so much easier being on top butit's also harder trying to stay on top. :P
It just easier to start off with an A. Then whatever homework I do and turn in starts from there. If I do my homework, I keep my A. If I fail a quiz. My grade goes down to a B maybe? Trying to get to the top sounds so hard to do! Ugggggh.
I have to start preparing for ACTS and SATS. Money, money, money. I have to go out and buy the prep books too. More money to spend. I don't even know if my graphing calculator from 1995 will do any good for Algebra II. More money to spend. On top of all of that, I don't have a job. No one will hire me. Just fucking great.
I feel pressured. Stressed. Exhausted. Today just wore me out.
Oh yeah and while taking out my contacts. My fingers slipped, and I lost my right lense. Now, I'm pissed.
But then I decided to not give a shit and just move the fuck on. Because I don't have the time to be feeling like a fucking pissed bitch.
It just keeps adding on and on and on. I wonder how much I can take before I lose it.
Oh yeah and then I leave school for 8 days in January to go chill in CALIFORNIA.
I just want to chillllllll like I did during Freshmen and Sophomore year without worries.
Wonder- IMMI
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