since i was told that it was totally up to me whether i get back to work today or not, i decided to work. it was okay, not hard cus not busy. in these days, surprisingly, my toe doesnt hurt, though if it doesnt touch anything. im not sure that is why i kinda feel it got better, but i know i shouldnt be careless. ya i know if i let myself take it easy, i will get burned right away. anyway, i got to know there is nothing worries about work with that. well, the length of time i had been off was a week, which was good enough because i could rest myself and relax. i havent taken this long days off for a while so during the past 7 days, i had plenty of time to think of what im going to do after going back to japan. however, i couldnt figure it out so im still thinking.

A couple weeks ago, I got an ingrown toe nail, which is pretty bad. Since I used to have that kind of things many times when I was in Japan, I thought I could hundle this, fixing it myself. Well, it was too late to do it.

My big toe had been infected badly so I ended up going to see a doctor last week. And the doctor told me that I might have to get a surgery if it doesnt get better by taking antibiotic. Anyway, I got a surgery last Thursday. And the treatment was to freeze my big toe and cut flesh off. It was all of sudden because I was expecting that to keep taking antibiotic and my toe seemed to me like getting better, but it didnt go as i expected. The doctor was like "oh i think its time to do it .", then the surgery was started right away despite the fact i told him i had a TOEFL test on friday and asked whether it bugs me after the surgery because i didnt want to get annoyed by that.

As a result, it really disturbed me during the test. It is not like i suffered the pain ,but bleeding just didnt stop. All bandage dressed my toe got covered with blood. In the end, a instructor started worrying about me and brought a lot of paper and a footstoll. Anyway, the test was really difficult for me. No matter what condition i was in, i think it would not work out well. And now, i have been off work because the docor told me and i know i cant even stand up and walk otherwise it is going to be bleeding again. Therefore, staying my house quietly and keeping lifting my right foot up is the only choice i have. That is really boring. What i was surprised by was how strong the painkiller is. While i am in the effect of painkiller, does not hurt at all. It feels like it got recovered completely, though it is not.

Wondering how many more days it takes to get normal. Hoping it get better as soon as possible.